here's what I'm doing today:
working @ the Keats office, 9-5.
I haven't had a job like this in a long time.
It's kinda fun. Except I only slept for about 4 hours (woke up late, but still managed to get here on time, and I don't look too shabby), so my eyes are throbbing. Maybe I'll throw on the reading glasses. I don't know if that helps much, but the eyes are less throbby. It's weird though. I can see around the rims of the glasses, so it's like a magnifying glass moving in front of me...kind of disorienting.
Alas.
I'm listening to waterdeep's "enter the worship circle", 2nd circle. GOod stuff.
I think I was more into worship music on my dts. I was more into worship period. All day everday, that was my state of mind. Not so anymore. That's sad, I think. I guess being in full time ministry is kind of like heaven, except on earth. Or maybe not like heaven, but...
hmm...where was I going with this.
When your work and personal life are wrapped into one, and all of it is explicitly connected to God, it's a really beautiful place to be in, because everything is worship.
Or that was my experience of six months.
Incidentally, I don't know if these glasses are helping at all. Oh well.
Okay, moving on, what was I saying? Oh right, worship. Here's something Dave Ward told me:
"In the ywam times, you're being fed, and you're on the mountaintop and it's awesome. But you can't stay there. It's in the times away from there that it all becomes real, and you faith matures."
It was something like that, and it really made sense to me.
I'm working @ my friend Katrina's desk, and that's fun. She's such a colourful, vibrant, holy woman. I love her to bits. She adds a brightness everywhere she goes.
Sadly, she's going back to Townsville soon. It makes me sad, obviously it's good for her though.
I wish I could go back too. That would be fun.
maybe ya'll can start a fund for me, a "send melinda back to townsville for some time of relaxation and renewal" fund.
It could happen...
12.12.03
oh man.
take my credit card away.
cut it up, lock it up, hide it away so I can never use it again.
seriously.
cut it up, lock it up, hide it away so I can never use it again.
seriously.
11.12.03
7.12.03
I watched most of "the Green Mile" on tv a few nights ago, and I regret it SO much.
There's something strange about that movie. There's a darkness to it that I can't explain, but I can't deny it either.
I don't recommend it.
on top of it all, today wasn't a great day.
even though I watched a muppet movie tonight, I watched it alone because no one else wanted to.
but it's all good. you gotta cry as you're going to sleep once in a while. although, if I do, it will be because I was @ the optometrist's today, and the effects of the drops he put in my eyes (to make the pupils bigger, so he could check out the inner...eye) haven't worn off yet.
g'nite.
merry Christmas.
There's something strange about that movie. There's a darkness to it that I can't explain, but I can't deny it either.
I don't recommend it.
on top of it all, today wasn't a great day.
even though I watched a muppet movie tonight, I watched it alone because no one else wanted to.
but it's all good. you gotta cry as you're going to sleep once in a while. although, if I do, it will be because I was @ the optometrist's today, and the effects of the drops he put in my eyes (to make the pupils bigger, so he could check out the inner...eye) haven't worn off yet.
g'nite.
merry Christmas.
2.12.03
NO MORE
i can't handel lisztening to music anymore.
NO MORE MUSIC(a intima)!
Seriously folks, i'm chopin up my cd's and tapes, because these tunes are sure to kill me.
I'm more wrecked that sonata form in the hands of schoenberg.
my ears crave silence. or something. i haven't found it yet, but when i do, it will be the best sound on earth.
NO MORE MUSIC(a intima)!
Seriously folks, i'm chopin up my cd's and tapes, because these tunes are sure to kill me.
I'm more wrecked that sonata form in the hands of schoenberg.
my ears crave silence. or something. i haven't found it yet, but when i do, it will be the best sound on earth.
addendum
i've written my teacher an addendum (sp?) letter, and i fixed the technical mistakes of my essay. i didn't edit it or fix other mistakes, just the ones pertaining to in text citation, and the stupid auto formatting my computer did.
So...that's the end of that. Tomorrow it's on to studying for sight singing and history, and after that...my semester in dignified ruins, I will enjoy Christmas vacation.
The end.
So...that's the end of that. Tomorrow it's on to studying for sight singing and history, and after that...my semester in dignified ruins, I will enjoy Christmas vacation.
The end.
1.12.03
28.11.03
wasting time...
i spent the morning with my allergist.
he's a funny little chinese man with an office on the 14th floor of a building on Broadway.
he said i should listen to a Norweigan singer named Sissel, because she sings like an angel.
just wait'll he hears me sing.
ps...i'm still allergic to grass and dust. and i'm going back on the allergy shots.
western medicine may be evil, but it's more fun than being sick all the time.
he's a funny little chinese man with an office on the 14th floor of a building on Broadway.
he said i should listen to a Norweigan singer named Sissel, because she sings like an angel.
just wait'll he hears me sing.
ps...i'm still allergic to grass and dust. and i'm going back on the allergy shots.
western medicine may be evil, but it's more fun than being sick all the time.
27.11.03
25.11.03
new day
i'm writing a research essay on nina simone.
The problem is, not many people have written books about her.
Pretty much just she has. An autobiography. It makes research kind of tough.
have a resplendant night and week
m*rock
The problem is, not many people have written books about her.
Pretty much just she has. An autobiography. It makes research kind of tough.
have a resplendant night and week
m*rock
18.11.03
sometimes i am so cool
i always get inspired to blog when i'm on the bus, driving, almost asleep, showering, sitting in ear training/sight singing, picking my nose...
and when i get to this page is all flits away.
maybe i need to keep a hardcopy blogging journal.
the guy across from me has short hair. he's wearing a headband.
weird.
note: it's been realized by some of the population that I am not a pansy.
cheers.
and when i get to this page is all flits away.
maybe i need to keep a hardcopy blogging journal.
the guy across from me has short hair. he's wearing a headband.
weird.
note: it's been realized by some of the population that I am not a pansy.
cheers.
9.11.03
He saw me from the cross.
Hey yo. I just came across this letter. I wrote it while I was on my dts as part of a weekly assignment we had to do.
read on!
m.
Dear Dad,
I have fallen in love! Long dark (lice -infested) hair, deepy brown eyes, a beautiful smile (full of rotting teeth). Beautiful skin (except for a few scabs on her legs), bright-coloured clothing (albeit a litle dusty and dirty).
Her name is Kristalina. She's the sweetest girl ever, rather like that Melinda I brought home a few years ago. Remember how smelly she was? I was so tuched when you took her from my arms and held her in your lap. You stroked her hair as she sobbed, and wiped her snot and tears all over you. But still you held her, talked with her~youlistened so intently, never taking your eyes off hers, though at times she could hardly look at You. It was a beautiful thing to watch.
Well, I think she's learned~or is beginning to learn~how to share that love with others. She loves holding Kristalina. Melinda was a bit turned off at first, but after thinking about You, she held that little girl close.
I'm so glad she's learning! She's got a long way to go, but I think she'll only get better at it as se understands your love more and more.
That's all for now,
Love, Jesus
read on!
m.
Dear Dad,
I have fallen in love! Long dark (lice -infested) hair, deepy brown eyes, a beautiful smile (full of rotting teeth). Beautiful skin (except for a few scabs on her legs), bright-coloured clothing (albeit a litle dusty and dirty).
Her name is Kristalina. She's the sweetest girl ever, rather like that Melinda I brought home a few years ago. Remember how smelly she was? I was so tuched when you took her from my arms and held her in your lap. You stroked her hair as she sobbed, and wiped her snot and tears all over you. But still you held her, talked with her~youlistened so intently, never taking your eyes off hers, though at times she could hardly look at You. It was a beautiful thing to watch.
Well, I think she's learned~or is beginning to learn~how to share that love with others. She loves holding Kristalina. Melinda was a bit turned off at first, but after thinking about You, she held that little girl close.
I'm so glad she's learning! She's got a long way to go, but I think she'll only get better at it as se understands your love more and more.
That's all for now,
Love, Jesus
today...tooodaaay.
chris & ali were married this afternoon. technically, yesterday afternoon.
I don't really have a top ten list, but if I did theirs would be at the top.
but i've been gushing all evening about how great it was.
now i'm going to knit, and then sleep.
I don't really have a top ten list, but if I did theirs would be at the top.
but i've been gushing all evening about how great it was.
now i'm going to knit, and then sleep.
8.11.03
7.11.03
announcement, announcement, annouuuuuuuuuuuuncement!`
Today...I inducted...no less than 3!!! new cards into my wallet.
it was a big day.
it was a big day.
4.11.03
blood banquet
Friday Nov. 7 @ Ethical Addictions Coffee House in Langley.
"Blood Banquet"
Featuring:
@8:00PM
melinda joy
ruben degroot
happy kreter
@10:00PM
witness protection program
the hand
double blind experiment
in medias res
hejira
cost is $5 or $4 with canned food or clothing donation. proceeds to Langley salvation army.
COME ON! YOu know you wanna come!
"Blood Banquet"
Featuring:
@8:00PM
melinda joy
ruben degroot
happy kreter
@10:00PM
witness protection program
the hand
double blind experiment
in medias res
hejira
cost is $5 or $4 with canned food or clothing donation. proceeds to Langley salvation army.
COME ON! YOu know you wanna come!
conversations.
last friday, on the way to get sushi:
a: hey melinda, you ever smoke pot?
me: nope.
a: never?
me: nope.
a: so you're pretty dead set against it then.
me: yep.
*awkwardish silence...*
a: do your friends do it?
me: some of them do, yeah.
a: so what do you do, scold them?
me: *silence indicating that I'm really unimpressed with how stupid this conversation is*...no.
...
me: can you drop me off @ school now? Thaaaaaanks.
a: hey melinda, you ever smoke pot?
me: nope.
a: never?
me: nope.
a: so you're pretty dead set against it then.
me: yep.
*awkwardish silence...*
a: do your friends do it?
me: some of them do, yeah.
a: so what do you do, scold them?
me: *silence indicating that I'm really unimpressed with how stupid this conversation is*...no.
...
me: can you drop me off @ school now? Thaaaaaanks.
3.11.03
2.11.03
it's how late!?
i built an ikea shelf with zoe tonight.
SO FUN!
it's ruling a corner in my room now. huh.
i have a sweet idea for chris & ali's wedding present. yeah, i'm pretty stoked.
this month @ curves i lost.....*drum roll please....* 4 pouds and a total of 9.75 inches!
yeah measuring day!
I have...5 tests this week.
SO FUN!
it's ruling a corner in my room now. huh.
i have a sweet idea for chris & ali's wedding present. yeah, i'm pretty stoked.
this month @ curves i lost.....*drum roll please....* 4 pouds and a total of 9.75 inches!
yeah measuring day!
I have...5 tests this week.
23.10.03
Welcome to MSN.ca
stupoid compootzer
remember this? :
spandex= NOT cool.
now:
lulu lemon= cool
lulu lemon= spandex
spandex=lulu lemon=cool
SPANDEX = COOL!!!!
what the heck?
remember this? :
spandex= NOT cool.
now:
lulu lemon= cool
lulu lemon= spandex
spandex=lulu lemon=cool
SPANDEX = COOL!!!!
what the heck?
zzz
sleeping now.
things to do:
history (reading)
theory
ear training (intervals! chords! argh!)
sight singing (in minor keys...argh! #30-77!)
piano (practice)
choir: learn solos
omnes generationes
fecit potentiam...
etc...
SLEEP.
Wedding gift for Kristen.
$$ to keats.
Songs for keats breakfast (by Friday!)
Nov.7 set list and chord sheets.
SLEEP.
love Jesus *first*
SLEEP
stop blogging!
riiight...
things to do:
history (reading)
theory
ear training (intervals! chords! argh!)
sight singing (in minor keys...argh! #30-77!)
piano (practice)
choir: learn solos
omnes generationes
fecit potentiam...
etc...
SLEEP.
Wedding gift for Kristen.
$$ to keats.
Songs for keats breakfast (by Friday!)
Nov.7 set list and chord sheets.
SLEEP.
love Jesus *first*
SLEEP
stop blogging!
riiight...
fashion cents
i've been rockin' the side-belt the last few days.
things good: studs on the front, not wrapped around the back.
something new!
a belt threading adventure every morning.
things bad: belt buckle pinching me...
something done!
difficulties unforseen.
things not to blog about: belts.
shoot.
things good: studs on the front, not wrapped around the back.
something new!
a belt threading adventure every morning.
things bad: belt buckle pinching me...
something done!
difficulties unforseen.
things not to blog about: belts.
shoot.
22.10.03
sonata form.
like the country.
but not country.
I got 47/50 on my theory test today. That was pretty darn sweet.
And this sounds odd, but I totally could've got a perfect score. The mistakes I made, had I been in a calmer state of mind when checking over my work, would have been easy to correct!
arGH!
Well we won't complain too much.
I'm going to Curves after school tomorrow. Woohoo, gyM!
ANd I'm practicing with Jo and Brett @ Jo's house, for our monumental gig on NOv.7 @ ethical addictions in langley.
I'm opening for freakin' hejira and wpp.
wha--?
Chris and Ali get married the NEXT day!!! WOAH!
TOnight:
mesa luna's (or cover receipient): $6
hejira: $5
raking bombs: $8
me: empty wallet, lotsa love, new cd's, wandering voice*, and a really cool death cab for cutie beater (not technically part of the night's activities)..
*wandering voice: not lost, but not found.*
but not country.
I got 47/50 on my theory test today. That was pretty darn sweet.
And this sounds odd, but I totally could've got a perfect score. The mistakes I made, had I been in a calmer state of mind when checking over my work, would have been easy to correct!
arGH!
Well we won't complain too much.
I'm going to Curves after school tomorrow. Woohoo, gyM!
ANd I'm practicing with Jo and Brett @ Jo's house, for our monumental gig on NOv.7 @ ethical addictions in langley.
I'm opening for freakin' hejira and wpp.
wha--?
Chris and Ali get married the NEXT day!!! WOAH!
TOnight:
mesa luna's (or cover receipient): $6
hejira: $5
raking bombs: $8
me: empty wallet, lotsa love, new cd's, wandering voice*, and a really cool death cab for cutie beater (not technically part of the night's activities)..
*wandering voice: not lost, but not found.*
20.10.03
too late.
school tomorrow!? AHH!!!
I'm writing a review for the Stanley Theatre's production of Othello, which I saw over a week ago, and hence should have reviewed over a week ago. I didn't even take notes during the show, so specifics of scenes i liked/disliked are hard to write down.
argh.
Tonight I ushered for a show @ school, and what I wanted to share from that was a couplet of lyrics from a song.
"an enemy to my soul resides inside me
and so i am afraid to meet myself alone"
a poignant line, no? And a very human way of thinking. I was pondering this as I sat in the audience listening to the song.
It's not God who perceives us as having the enemy inside us...that's a human perception. The enemy of our souls is outside of us...
what struck me was how often we believe that we are worthless, or that there is something inherently wrong with us...
I suppose in a way there is, because we're human, but I guess on a more personal level...
too often I hate who I am, and I'm afraid to meet God, or even to be honest with myself, because I will be face to face with this awful being who is me. But in truth, if Christ lives in me...if God has breathed into me his holy Spirit then I am redeemed, and though I sin, I can stand forgiven before the Father...
What destroys me, what is the enemy to my soul is the evil one, whose lies I may take in, but they still do not come from within me.
Perhaps the enemy to my soul which lives inside me is only my insecurities, over which I can have the victory...
?
I'm writing a review for the Stanley Theatre's production of Othello, which I saw over a week ago, and hence should have reviewed over a week ago. I didn't even take notes during the show, so specifics of scenes i liked/disliked are hard to write down.
argh.
Tonight I ushered for a show @ school, and what I wanted to share from that was a couplet of lyrics from a song.
"an enemy to my soul resides inside me
and so i am afraid to meet myself alone"
a poignant line, no? And a very human way of thinking. I was pondering this as I sat in the audience listening to the song.
It's not God who perceives us as having the enemy inside us...that's a human perception. The enemy of our souls is outside of us...
what struck me was how often we believe that we are worthless, or that there is something inherently wrong with us...
I suppose in a way there is, because we're human, but I guess on a more personal level...
too often I hate who I am, and I'm afraid to meet God, or even to be honest with myself, because I will be face to face with this awful being who is me. But in truth, if Christ lives in me...if God has breathed into me his holy Spirit then I am redeemed, and though I sin, I can stand forgiven before the Father...
What destroys me, what is the enemy to my soul is the evil one, whose lies I may take in, but they still do not come from within me.
Perhaps the enemy to my soul which lives inside me is only my insecurities, over which I can have the victory...
?
17.10.03
4.6!!!
TODAY...
I wrote a music theory test.
things to remember...
1) check for parallel octaves (they'll getcha every time!!!).
2) When V7 resolves normally to I, I has a tripled root.
3) write about whatever you want on your blog, even if only 2 of your readers understand what's going on.
Praise God from whom all blessings flow.
Praise him, all creatures here below!
Praise him above, you heavenly hosts!
Praise Father, Son and Holy Spirit.
amen.
I wrote a music theory test.
things to remember...
1) check for parallel octaves (they'll getcha every time!!!).
2) When V7 resolves normally to I, I has a tripled root.
3) write about whatever you want on your blog, even if only 2 of your readers understand what's going on.
Praise God from whom all blessings flow.
Praise him, all creatures here below!
Praise him above, you heavenly hosts!
Praise Father, Son and Holy Spirit.
amen.
16.10.03
the in medias res blog
the in medias res blog
Check out the boys' blog, eh?
Scandal and hilarity simultaneously ensue.
I'm writing a review of a concert I saw last Friday, which should have been done on the weekend, and I have another review for Monday of Othello which I saw last Thursday.
Hopefully the sentences in my papers will run on less that these ones do.
When I turn on my heater my computer speakers click.
*leans down to turn off heater...does so/speakers click*
see?
Check out the boys' blog, eh?
Scandal and hilarity simultaneously ensue.
I'm writing a review of a concert I saw last Friday, which should have been done on the weekend, and I have another review for Monday of Othello which I saw last Thursday.
Hopefully the sentences in my papers will run on less that these ones do.
When I turn on my heater my computer speakers click.
*leans down to turn off heater...does so/speakers click*
see?
today jo was wet.
jo got wet today.
she needs an umbrella.
her feet were dry.
HOORAY for rocket dog shoes!
Purchase of the millenium!
she needs an umbrella.
her feet were dry.
HOORAY for rocket dog shoes!
Purchase of the millenium!
can't...remember...funny...things...*gah*
so...
i saw lots of funny stuff today.
but now i can't remember it.
one thing:
curly hair, not a frizz. dressed in black.
confused, he pauses to ponder a moment his next move.
planning, thinking, mapping the route.
noticing the soreness in his bones
a long life lived with fullness
may be tarnished with illness.
Looks up to see two familiar faces,
a light in the midst of a dark dreary day.
moving towards them, a smile on his...
*SLAM!*
(he quickly realizes that his soliloquy has taken place in the middle of the pathway leading away from the stairwell...a rude awakening for so gentle a soul).
Thank you Dylan for making my day a little better.
i saw lots of funny stuff today.
but now i can't remember it.
one thing:
curly hair, not a frizz. dressed in black.
confused, he pauses to ponder a moment his next move.
planning, thinking, mapping the route.
noticing the soreness in his bones
a long life lived with fullness
may be tarnished with illness.
Looks up to see two familiar faces,
a light in the midst of a dark dreary day.
moving towards them, a smile on his...
*SLAM!*
(he quickly realizes that his soliloquy has taken place in the middle of the pathway leading away from the stairwell...a rude awakening for so gentle a soul).
Thank you Dylan for making my day a little better.
*sad*
I went away for the summer and now all my commenters have left me.
boo hoo.
I got a freakin' A+!!!!!
Oh man.
Still amazed.
boo hoo.
I got a freakin' A+!!!!!
Oh man.
Still amazed.
15.10.03
Welcome to MSN.ca
this is my blog today
HEY!
I ate an oragne and my hands now smell like orange, but it's a gross smell. Making me sick...
oooh...
bedtime.
I got an A+ on my history midterm.
shoot. I love school.
& mattie mc.d
HEY!
I ate an oragne and my hands now smell like orange, but it's a gross smell. Making me sick...
oooh...
bedtime.
I got an A+ on my history midterm.
shoot. I love school.
& mattie mc.d
13.10.03
sometimes...
It is always a bad idea to play solitaire before you do homework, because you can't stop playing solitaire until you win a game, and once you do win one (10 games later), you want to win another, and soon you find an entire hour has passed by, and you haven't done any of your work.
Sometimes I think that I should get an award for being the best falsely productive procrastinator ever.
Sometimes I think that I should get an award for being the best falsely productive procrastinator ever.
blue cup
1). If I ever declare myself completely broke it will be because I went to IKEA and couldn't hold onto what shreds of self-control I currently salvage when I am there.
2). If, for the next month, I am faithful in going to Curves, I will buy some new pants, and get rid of some old ones!
3). I have more books than most of my peers. Is that weird? I'm buying a new bookshelf (a BILLY corner shelf, from IKEA) just to accomodate them all.
4). On Victoria St. in Vancouver (near the Value Village) there is a billboard advertisement for an SUV. It says, "SEARCH AND RESCUE YOUR GROCERIES".
I think that nicely sums up how STUPID it is to drive an SUV in the city!
5). I just ordered the new Death Cab for Cutie album & a t-shirt for $26 US. Not bad?
6). If you haven't done so already, check this out! It's more fun that a worm!!
2). If, for the next month, I am faithful in going to Curves, I will buy some new pants, and get rid of some old ones!
3). I have more books than most of my peers. Is that weird? I'm buying a new bookshelf (a BILLY corner shelf, from IKEA) just to accomodate them all.
4). On Victoria St. in Vancouver (near the Value Village) there is a billboard advertisement for an SUV. It says, "SEARCH AND RESCUE YOUR GROCERIES".
I think that nicely sums up how STUPID it is to drive an SUV in the city!
5). I just ordered the new Death Cab for Cutie album & a t-shirt for $26 US. Not bad?
6). If you haven't done so already, check this out! It's more fun that a worm!!
12.10.03
weird
My blog entries are supposed to be preceded by titles, but they're not!
HTML, thou are mine mortal enemy!
I'm wearing a turtleneck sweater. My neck itches.
HTML, thou are mine mortal enemy!
I'm wearing a turtleneck sweater. My neck itches.
oh crap! I didn't know you would be doing one...
I wonder if he's broken up with me, and that's why I don't remember?
mystery lovers...
A couple from my church moved away about a year ago, and they were back to visit this morning. I was talking to Terri, the woman of the couple, and she said she'd heard that I have a boyfriend!
I gave Ben a high-five, because that's sweet!
Oh wait...I don't have a boyfriend.
A teacher @ my old high school asked my little sister if I'm getting married soon!?
Sounds like I'm getting some pretty sweet action...if only I'd known!!
I gave Ben a high-five, because that's sweet!
Oh wait...I don't have a boyfriend.
A teacher @ my old high school asked my little sister if I'm getting married soon!?
Sounds like I'm getting some pretty sweet action...if only I'd known!!
serrano peppers
on Friday night I saw Jo! play her bass with the West Coast Symphony Orchestra.
Afterwards, we all (mikael, ash, roger, jo, lindsay, matt, gus and me) went to the Cactus Club.
I got some kind of spicy noodle bowl.
I almost died.
Today, it was flushed from my body, but my esophagus is still burning.
Bland food, forever!
Afterwards, we all (mikael, ash, roger, jo, lindsay, matt, gus and me) went to the Cactus Club.
I got some kind of spicy noodle bowl.
I almost died.
Today, it was flushed from my body, but my esophagus is still burning.
Bland food, forever!
almond icing pounding my head.
happy birthday mom! (yesterday, technically).
I went to maynard's uber (which apparently means over, not super) sale with jo, roger and ash. Sorely disappointing in terms of personal purchases, wonderfully amusing in terms of company.
I shouldn't drive when I'm tired. It makes me dangerous.
grr...
I went to maynard's uber (which apparently means over, not super) sale with jo, roger and ash. Sorely disappointing in terms of personal purchases, wonderfully amusing in terms of company.
I shouldn't drive when I'm tired. It makes me dangerous.
grr...
9.10.03
i love new features
i just wanted to post something having engaged the new title feature.
i love red flowers!
and my bed! so i'm going to sleep in it now!
bye!
i love red flowers!
and my bed! so i'm going to sleep in it now!
bye!
today i spent 5 hours in the library studying music history.
i only made it through to the early baroque. late baroque, and specifics of baroque instrumental and vocal music are lost to me. as are the lifetime dates of the composers, and most of the details about them.
note to self: start studying 2 weeks, not 2 days before a mid*term. aiiya!
the good part is that as a result of being @ school so late, i got to bus home with my friend ryan (and his yet-unnamed friend).
so really, it was a well-balanced day.
another 18 hour day, but well balanced nonetheless.
i only made it through to the early baroque. late baroque, and specifics of baroque instrumental and vocal music are lost to me. as are the lifetime dates of the composers, and most of the details about them.
note to self: start studying 2 weeks, not 2 days before a mid*term. aiiya!
the good part is that as a result of being @ school so late, i got to bus home with my friend ryan (and his yet-unnamed friend).
so really, it was a well-balanced day.
another 18 hour day, but well balanced nonetheless.
8.10.03
my name is m'rock.
my locker mate is t'rex.
my best mate is mikael.
my friend andrew writes me short emails.
my heart's been broken once, by a boy who doesn't really care.
my backpack is orange, and my shoes are red.
my room is blue and covered in photographs (those frozen memories).
sometimes i'm a jerk.
other times, i'm not.
i drive an '84 honda civic, with manual choke.
i like music.
my friend ash works for a radio station.
my friend katrina works for keats.
i used to chase geckos and dance in the rain with her in townsville.
my eyes are sore.
i've been awake for 18 hours.
my name is m'rock.
my locker mate is t'rex.
my best mate is mikael.
my friend andrew writes me short emails.
my heart's been broken once, by a boy who doesn't really care.
my backpack is orange, and my shoes are red.
my room is blue and covered in photographs (those frozen memories).
sometimes i'm a jerk.
other times, i'm not.
i drive an '84 honda civic, with manual choke.
i like music.
my friend ash works for a radio station.
my friend katrina works for keats.
i used to chase geckos and dance in the rain with her in townsville.
my eyes are sore.
i've been awake for 18 hours.
my name is m'rock.
6.10.03
5.10.03
one day i will ask you to dance
at sunrise with grey clouds and blue skies
and clean air just cold enough
to ruddy your cheeks.
palm to palm we'll waltz slowly,
now turning to face
th'awakening sun.
with grace
you'll hold me in this last embrace
before we must walk away.
stay with me in this sweet place
(small little dream space)
we can sleep until midnight
when the night moon shines so bright
the grey clouds in blue skies
cover us again.
at sunrise with grey clouds and blue skies
and clean air just cold enough
to ruddy your cheeks.
palm to palm we'll waltz slowly,
now turning to face
th'awakening sun.
with grace
you'll hold me in this last embrace
before we must walk away.
stay with me in this sweet place
(small little dream space)
we can sleep until midnight
when the night moon shines so bright
the grey clouds in blue skies
cover us again.
a friend of mine made an interesting point @ school on Friday in regards to this muck about homosexual marriages and how it relates to christians. she said something like, "the state has sought to purge itself of the church, so the church should be free to keep itself separate from state decisions, and to voice that desire for separation."
comments?
comments?
4.10.03
3.10.03
2.10.03
29.9.03
27.9.03
i watched 'bowling for columbine' with zoe last night.
it is an amazing film. the things that people will say to michael moore are unbelievable.
he seems like an honest man. when he's interviewing people, he was able to befriend them so quickly. he seemed more concerned to find answers than scandals.
i recommend you watch it.
the image that brought me to tears: the footage from columbine high school. watching the student run from the cafeteria, hiding under tables there, and in the library. i can hardly imagine the fear i would be feeling. can you?
there is so much i didn't know. and so much i don't know.
it is an amazing film. the things that people will say to michael moore are unbelievable.
he seems like an honest man. when he's interviewing people, he was able to befriend them so quickly. he seemed more concerned to find answers than scandals.
i recommend you watch it.
the image that brought me to tears: the footage from columbine high school. watching the student run from the cafeteria, hiding under tables there, and in the library. i can hardly imagine the fear i would be feeling. can you?
there is so much i didn't know. and so much i don't know.
24.9.03
This morning did not go so well.
I woke up late (typical).
In my hurry to find a pair of shoes to wear, I bashed my elbow on the wall. (it still hurts).
I had to wear my smelly black shoes (they are toxic).
I burst into tears on my way out the door (hormones or hard times?)
I did catch my bus (wow, a glimmer of hope?)
*this is the cherry on top* My creme-cheese breakfast bagel (mmm...food a la dad) was made of 2!! bagel bottoms! (no bagel tops, which are the BEST part).
*sighs*
I woke up late (typical).
In my hurry to find a pair of shoes to wear, I bashed my elbow on the wall. (it still hurts).
I had to wear my smelly black shoes (they are toxic).
I burst into tears on my way out the door (hormones or hard times?)
I did catch my bus (wow, a glimmer of hope?)
*this is the cherry on top* My creme-cheese breakfast bagel (mmm...food a la dad) was made of 2!! bagel bottoms! (no bagel tops, which are the BEST part).
*sighs*
23.9.03
17-9-03
Nothing involving him (or you and him) is ever "as it seems". There's always something more, something hidden--a meaning you think you know, but you'd like to ignore. Can't a greeting be simple? a hug natural? A kiss on the cheek or a high five, a phone call, an email! a
love poem.
Like this one.
Sometimes I forget the gun is loaded
When I pull the trigger who hits the floor?
If you shoot and no one is around to be hit, does the bullet fly forever?
Will this heart break yours--never?
Nothing involving him (or you and him) is ever "as it seems". There's always something more, something hidden--a meaning you think you know, but you'd like to ignore. Can't a greeting be simple? a hug natural? A kiss on the cheek or a high five, a phone call, an email! a
love poem.
Like this one.
Sometimes I forget the gun is loaded
When I pull the trigger who hits the floor?
If you shoot and no one is around to be hit, does the bullet fly forever?
Will this heart break yours--never?
17.9.03
Today @ school I saw Tim, Justin, Kristen, Jo!, Anita, and later on...Claire.
It's fun to have school friends.
Ooh, stupid story of the week! Gah! Piss!
I missed the last "get me to school on time" bus this morning. GAH!!! PISS!!! It was 8am, and I was freaking out. So I called my dad. And then I saw a bus pull up, so I said, "bye dad!", and went to get on the bus. Unfortunately it was the 404, not the 351 or 601 or anything else useful, but I got on it anyway. The ride took FOREVER, of course, and I was stressing out SO much,until...I saw Ash Poon! He was standing @ the B-line stop, looking dashing (as per usual). I was going to transfer to the 98 later on, but since he was there, I got off @ the next stop and rode with him! He was talking to Lucy...
So Ash brightened my day. Until....I got downtown, walked to a 210 stop. And I waited. And waited...and waited, and waited, and waited, and waited....I waited some more after that. The #8, 22, 19, 8, 22, 19, 210 NOT IN SERVICE! (GAH!! PISS!!!). I thought of taking a taxi, and almost did. Then I called Nicole, and a bus came....a few minutes too late. It was already 9:30am....Class Piano had begun.
Normally, this wouldn't be a huge proble, BUT today we had a test!
When I FINALLY got to school, I ran into my building, into my classroom....and somebody was sitting @ my piano!!! He wasn't even from my class!!! (jerk).
So I had to sit in the middle row, waaaay too freakin' close to the keyboard, and I was shaking and flipping out, so when I played my test I couldn't even read the freakin' music, I couldn't move my hands properly because they were shaking...
GAH!
*sighs*
And then my teacher called me 'Melissa'.
It's fun to have school friends.
Ooh, stupid story of the week! Gah! Piss!
I missed the last "get me to school on time" bus this morning. GAH!!! PISS!!! It was 8am, and I was freaking out. So I called my dad. And then I saw a bus pull up, so I said, "bye dad!", and went to get on the bus. Unfortunately it was the 404, not the 351 or 601 or anything else useful, but I got on it anyway. The ride took FOREVER, of course, and I was stressing out SO much,until...I saw Ash Poon! He was standing @ the B-line stop, looking dashing (as per usual). I was going to transfer to the 98 later on, but since he was there, I got off @ the next stop and rode with him! He was talking to Lucy...
So Ash brightened my day. Until....I got downtown, walked to a 210 stop. And I waited. And waited...and waited, and waited, and waited, and waited....I waited some more after that. The #8, 22, 19, 8, 22, 19, 210 NOT IN SERVICE! (GAH!! PISS!!!). I thought of taking a taxi, and almost did. Then I called Nicole, and a bus came....a few minutes too late. It was already 9:30am....Class Piano had begun.
Normally, this wouldn't be a huge proble, BUT today we had a test!
When I FINALLY got to school, I ran into my building, into my classroom....and somebody was sitting @ my piano!!! He wasn't even from my class!!! (jerk).
So I had to sit in the middle row, waaaay too freakin' close to the keyboard, and I was shaking and flipping out, so when I played my test I couldn't even read the freakin' music, I couldn't move my hands properly because they were shaking...
GAH!
*sighs*
And then my teacher called me 'Melissa'.
10.9.03
this weekend: judith forst gala on Friday night, Dee Daniels concert Saturday night. Cost to me: $20. Cost to the average schmoo: $50-$150. HA ha ha...
ALso this weekend: hang time with people I love, rock garden, worship leading on Sunday aaand...homework for school.
new word I learned this week: etymology.
Things to work on: chord spellings, figured bass, roman numeral chord #'s and all that jazz (or not jazz).
things that are sweet about life: too many to mention right here and now.
Psalms 66 says, "Make HIS praise glorious!"
mmmhmmm...
ALso this weekend: hang time with people I love, rock garden, worship leading on Sunday aaand...homework for school.
new word I learned this week: etymology.
Things to work on: chord spellings, figured bass, roman numeral chord #'s and all that jazz (or not jazz).
things that are sweet about life: too many to mention right here and now.
Psalms 66 says, "Make HIS praise glorious!"
mmmhmmm...
9.9.03
On Boundary Road, between Schou and Canada Way there is an intersection which is, in essence, a glorified median. There is a stoplight pre-median and post-median (so cars from both Schou and Canada Way can cross Boundary). I always thought it would suck if you got the 1st...and the 2nd red lights. That means on your green light (assuming you're driving North on Boundary Rd) would get you....the length of the median, and no more.
This morning I saw it happen.
Yeah...somebody's morning sucked. Not mine though. I got to school in about 50 mins. Pretty sweet!
This morning I saw it happen.
Yeah...somebody's morning sucked. Not mine though. I got to school in about 50 mins. Pretty sweet!
4.9.03
3.9.03
wow!
I have heeeaps of homework (yeah full-time music student).
Sooo....you may not be seeing me for a while. A loooong while. Maybe a year or more. Or maybe just 'til I get the hang of this. But...if you haven't seen me, and are wondering if I am still alive, look for me hunched over in a corner of cap's library, counting out loud, or check for the forced look of peace on the face of the driver of an '84 civic hatchback.
Freakin' rush hour.
I have heeeaps of homework (yeah full-time music student).
Sooo....you may not be seeing me for a while. A loooong while. Maybe a year or more. Or maybe just 'til I get the hang of this. But...if you haven't seen me, and are wondering if I am still alive, look for me hunched over in a corner of cap's library, counting out loud, or check for the forced look of peace on the face of the driver of an '84 civic hatchback.
Freakin' rush hour.
30.8.03
It's true, it's true. Welcome me back fellow academics--I am re-entering the world of learning...those hallowed halls of learning and study carols, napping corners, fake potted plants and mystery foods from the cafeteria which make up the world called "school".
Question is:...am I ready?
Oh, one more thing...
Imperial Parking: $199.05
Melinda: 1 annual parking pass, 1 daily parking pass, 1 parking ticket for leaving her day pass facedown on the dashboard.
grrr...
Question is:...am I ready?
Oh, one more thing...
Imperial Parking: $199.05
Melinda: 1 annual parking pass, 1 daily parking pass, 1 parking ticket for leaving her day pass facedown on the dashboard.
grrr...
29.8.03
6.8.03
14.7.03
July 14 is it now? Good grief.
Melissa Sue Wilson is now Melissa Sue Short...even her voicemail says so.
The wedding was beautiful, in the end. And the groom is sure to become a great friend of mine, which I look forward to.
spending time with the dts-ers was just right. It was family. To quote Chris, "F-f-f-f-f-family." It was shocking, and strange, but oh so normal. Like breathing. Even driving with Jen Weber as a passenger.
Most of you won't know these people, although they recognize the name Ash, and asked after Mikael.
What to do, what to do. I suppose this is a part of life. And it reminds me that around the world, I am loved and thought about, longed for, and remembered.
It's nice to know I haven't been forgotten :)
Melissa Sue Wilson is now Melissa Sue Short...even her voicemail says so.
The wedding was beautiful, in the end. And the groom is sure to become a great friend of mine, which I look forward to.
spending time with the dts-ers was just right. It was family. To quote Chris, "F-f-f-f-f-family." It was shocking, and strange, but oh so normal. Like breathing. Even driving with Jen Weber as a passenger.
Most of you won't know these people, although they recognize the name Ash, and asked after Mikael.
What to do, what to do. I suppose this is a part of life. And it reminds me that around the world, I am loved and thought about, longed for, and remembered.
It's nice to know I haven't been forgotten :)
26.6.03
24.6.03
I just got back from CAAAAAAAMP!
Keats camps that is. Fun! fun! fun! in the...cold, overcast, lack of sun.
Weather in the Howe Sound is not as beautiful as here...yet!
It was grand to see my family, workmates, my BED.....
Over the weekend I learned to drive stick...on a big, old, truck of questionable quality named "Dumpy".
I only had to use 1st and 2nd gear, and it was great fun. I was taught by Shawn, who was impressed with the speed of my learning!
AND I never once made it jump or "bunny hop".
Yeah. I'm pretty cool. Or quick. Or something.
*HIGH FIVE*
Keats camps that is. Fun! fun! fun! in the...cold, overcast, lack of sun.
Weather in the Howe Sound is not as beautiful as here...yet!
It was grand to see my family, workmates, my BED.....
Over the weekend I learned to drive stick...on a big, old, truck of questionable quality named "Dumpy".
I only had to use 1st and 2nd gear, and it was great fun. I was taught by Shawn, who was impressed with the speed of my learning!
AND I never once made it jump or "bunny hop".
Yeah. I'm pretty cool. Or quick. Or something.
*HIGH FIVE*
19.6.03
18.6.03
dust. mold. grass.
my 3 sworn enemies, the biological banes of my existence.
I was trying to explain to ryan the extremes of my annoyance.
It's like my face is itchy and burning from the inside out. And a pressure is building. And soon, it will be let loose, and my face will explode off the front of my head.
in other news, imr and raking bombs, and a band I didn't see rocked the sons and the daughters @ mesa luna's tonight.
cheers.
my 3 sworn enemies, the biological banes of my existence.
I was trying to explain to ryan the extremes of my annoyance.
It's like my face is itchy and burning from the inside out. And a pressure is building. And soon, it will be let loose, and my face will explode off the front of my head.
in other news, imr and raking bombs, and a band I didn't see rocked the sons and the daughters @ mesa luna's tonight.
cheers.
17.6.03
whenever I french braid my hair, someone comments, and invariably asks if I did it myself.
I'm 21 years old!!! Who else would be braiding my hair for me!?
On another note, do commentors only comment when they see that another has gone before? Who will be the first, my friends? Who will be the first.
I'm 21 years old!!! Who else would be braiding my hair for me!?
On another note, do commentors only comment when they see that another has gone before? Who will be the first, my friends? Who will be the first.
16.6.03
15.6.03
what would you do if this was the last time you saw me?
if you knew that as we shook hands or high fives or laughed together, that these were our last moments, what would you do?
if today were your last day, what would you say to those around you? Would you fix things? Finally get down to resolving stuff? Or just let it go, because time is so short?
Sometimes thinking about it changes the way you act today.
Sometimes not.
Today it is sunny, and it is Father's day. Not a bad gig, eh?
if you knew that as we shook hands or high fives or laughed together, that these were our last moments, what would you do?
if today were your last day, what would you say to those around you? Would you fix things? Finally get down to resolving stuff? Or just let it go, because time is so short?
Sometimes thinking about it changes the way you act today.
Sometimes not.
Today it is sunny, and it is Father's day. Not a bad gig, eh?
14.6.03
well, this morning I forgot that my friend Brender (aka Brenda) was going to be @ the airport, en route to manitoba.
I FORGOT!!!
Yesterday, I neglected to wake up in time for my performance review @ work.
I FORGOT!!!
Today, I forgot to call Andwer in the afternoon.
I FORGOT!!!
My Bible is sitting on my dresser, but I haven't read it in a while.
I FORGOT!!!!
Noticing a pattern here?
I FORGOT!!!
Yesterday, I neglected to wake up in time for my performance review @ work.
I FORGOT!!!
Today, I forgot to call Andwer in the afternoon.
I FORGOT!!!
My Bible is sitting on my dresser, but I haven't read it in a while.
I FORGOT!!!!
Noticing a pattern here?
13.6.03
It's later than I wish it were, but I was just having an excellent conversation with my mum and Joanna, and that's not the kind of thing you cut off. I really like my mum, and my dad for that matter. Both of them are such examples to me of what it is to follow God. Not when it's easy or perfectly laid out, but to go and follow where He is calling and leading. They fully supported my time with ywam, and my time out of school, my recording, and my applying for school. They are here to help me with theory, with faith, with learning to cook rice properly, with friends, work; to hear my frustrations, my sorrows, joys, fears, worries, anxieties, problems; daycare and portland stories, philosophies, rants, hormonal rages....
My dad ministers in a denomination he doesn't fully agree with, but he stays because God has called him to. My mum is right in there too. They model to me a marriage that isn't perfect, but it's worth fighting for, and full of love.
I don't know what else to say, other than I hope they're around for a long time. It's hard to imagine walking into the world without them behind me, cheering me on, praying for me, and waiting to give hugs, no matter what happens.
Mum and dad, I love you.
My dad ministers in a denomination he doesn't fully agree with, but he stays because God has called him to. My mum is right in there too. They model to me a marriage that isn't perfect, but it's worth fighting for, and full of love.
I don't know what else to say, other than I hope they're around for a long time. It's hard to imagine walking into the world without them behind me, cheering me on, praying for me, and waiting to give hugs, no matter what happens.
Mum and dad, I love you.
12.6.03
These are VH-1's top 100 songs since Beethoven wrote his first Sonata. Or something like that.
1. Nirvana, “Smells Like Teen Spirit”
2. Michael Jackson, “Billie Jean”
3. Guns N’ Roses, “Sweet Child O’ Mine”
4. Eminem, “Lose Yourself”
5. U2, “One”
6. Run-D.M.C., “Walk This Way”
7. Prince, “When Doves Cry”
8. Whitney Houston, “I Will Always Love You”
9. The Police, “Every Breath You Take”
10. Madonna, “Like a Virgin”
11. Van Halen, “Jump”
12. Alanis Morissette, “You Oughta Know”
13. TLC, “Waterfalls”
14. Sinead O’Connor, “Nothing Compares 2 U”
15. Pink Floyd, “Another Brick in the Wall (Part 2)”
16. No Doubt, “Don’t Speak”
17. Def Leppard, “Photograph”
18. R.E.M., “Losing My Religion”
19. Public Enemy, “Fight the Power”
20. AC/DC, “You Shook Me All Night Long”
21. U2, “With or Without You”
22. Cyndi Lauper, “Time After Time”
23. Prince, “Little Red Corvette”
24. Celine Dion, “My Heart Will Go On”
25. Rick James, “Super Freak”
26. Bon Jovi, “Livin’ on a Prayer”
27. Grandmaster Flash, “The Message”
28. Britney Spears, “... Baby One More Time”
29. Bruce Springsteen, “Born in the U.S.A.”
30. Janet Jackson, “Nasty”
31. Dr. Dre feat. Snoop Doggy Dogg, “Nuthin’ but a ‘G’ Thang”
32. Pearl Jam, “Jeremy”
33. Tina Turner, “What’s Love Got to do With It”
34. Peter Gabriel, “In Your Eyes”
35. The Sugarhill Gang, “Rapper’s Delight”
36. Joan Jett, “I Love Rock ’n Roll”
37. Alicia Keys, “Fallin”’
38. The Clash, “London Calling”
39. Tom Petty, “Free Fallin”’
40. Michael Jackson, “Beat It”
41. Red Hot Chili Peppers, “Under the Bridge”
42. Blondie, “Heart of Glass”
43. The Go-Go’s, “Our Lips Are Sealed”
44. Gloria Gaynor, “I Will Survive”
45. Aerosmith, “I Don’t Want to Miss a Thing”
46. Queen and David Bowie, “Under Pressure”
47. Shania Twain, “You’re Still the One”
48. Naughty By Nature, “O.P.P.”
49. Journey, “Don’t Stop Believin”’
50. Lenny Kravitz, “Are You Gonna Go My Way?”
51. George Michael, “Faith”
52. The Rolling Stones, “Start Me Up”
53. Marvin Gaye, “Sexual Healing”
54. Goo Goo Dolls, “Iris”
55. Talking Heads, “Once in a Lifetime”
56. Sheryl Crow, “All I Wanna Do”
57. Eric Clapton, “Tears in Heaven”
58. The Notorious B.I.G. feat. Puff Daddy & Mase, “Mo Money Mo Problems”
59. Meat Loaf “Paradise By the Dashboard Light”
60. Santana feat. Rob Thomas, “Smooth”
61. Backstreet Boys, “I Want It That Way”
62. Pretenders, “Brass in Pocket”
63. Beck, “Loser”
64. The Knack, “My Sharona”
65. Nelly, “Hot in Herre”
66. Squeeze, “Tempted”
67. John Cougar Mellencamp, “Jack and Diane”
68. Chic, “Good Times”
69. Mary J. Blige, “Real Love”
70. Culture Club, “Do You Really Want to Hurt Me”
71. Dave Matthews Band, “Crash Into Me”
72. John Lennon, “(Just Like) Starting Over”
73. LL Cool J, “Mama Said Knock You Out”
74. Hall & Oates, “I Can’t Go for That (No Can Do)”
75. The Ramones, “I Wanna Be Sedated”
76. Eurythmics, “Sweet Dreams (Are Made of This)”
77. Missy Elliott, “Work It”
78. Green Day, “Good Riddance (Time of Your Life)”
79. Destiny’s Child, “Say My Name”
80. Duran Duran, “Hungry Like the Wolf”
81. OutKast, “Ms. Jackson”
82. Soft Cell, “Tainted Love”
83. Band Aid, “Do They Know It’s Christmas”
84. Radiohead, “Creep”
85. Eminem, “My Name Is”
86. Tracy Chapman, “Fast Car”
87. The Who, “Who Are You”
88. Metallica, “Enter Sandman”
89. Pat Benatar, “Hit Me With Your Best Shot”
90. The Police, “Roxanne”
91. Melissa Etheridge, “Come to My Window”
92. Salt-N-Pepa, “Push It”
93. Nine Inch Nails, “Closer”
94. Cheap Trick, “Surrender”
95. Oasis, “Wonderwall”
96. Beastie Boys, “(You Gotta) Fight for Your Right (to Party!)”
97. Devo, “Whip It”
98. Hanson, “MMMBop”
99. Norah Jones, “Don’t Know Why”
100. Madonna, “Ray of Light”
1. Nirvana, “Smells Like Teen Spirit”
2. Michael Jackson, “Billie Jean”
3. Guns N’ Roses, “Sweet Child O’ Mine”
4. Eminem, “Lose Yourself”
5. U2, “One”
6. Run-D.M.C., “Walk This Way”
7. Prince, “When Doves Cry”
8. Whitney Houston, “I Will Always Love You”
9. The Police, “Every Breath You Take”
10. Madonna, “Like a Virgin”
11. Van Halen, “Jump”
12. Alanis Morissette, “You Oughta Know”
13. TLC, “Waterfalls”
14. Sinead O’Connor, “Nothing Compares 2 U”
15. Pink Floyd, “Another Brick in the Wall (Part 2)”
16. No Doubt, “Don’t Speak”
17. Def Leppard, “Photograph”
18. R.E.M., “Losing My Religion”
19. Public Enemy, “Fight the Power”
20. AC/DC, “You Shook Me All Night Long”
21. U2, “With or Without You”
22. Cyndi Lauper, “Time After Time”
23. Prince, “Little Red Corvette”
24. Celine Dion, “My Heart Will Go On”
25. Rick James, “Super Freak”
26. Bon Jovi, “Livin’ on a Prayer”
27. Grandmaster Flash, “The Message”
28. Britney Spears, “... Baby One More Time”
29. Bruce Springsteen, “Born in the U.S.A.”
30. Janet Jackson, “Nasty”
31. Dr. Dre feat. Snoop Doggy Dogg, “Nuthin’ but a ‘G’ Thang”
32. Pearl Jam, “Jeremy”
33. Tina Turner, “What’s Love Got to do With It”
34. Peter Gabriel, “In Your Eyes”
35. The Sugarhill Gang, “Rapper’s Delight”
36. Joan Jett, “I Love Rock ’n Roll”
37. Alicia Keys, “Fallin”’
38. The Clash, “London Calling”
39. Tom Petty, “Free Fallin”’
40. Michael Jackson, “Beat It”
41. Red Hot Chili Peppers, “Under the Bridge”
42. Blondie, “Heart of Glass”
43. The Go-Go’s, “Our Lips Are Sealed”
44. Gloria Gaynor, “I Will Survive”
45. Aerosmith, “I Don’t Want to Miss a Thing”
46. Queen and David Bowie, “Under Pressure”
47. Shania Twain, “You’re Still the One”
48. Naughty By Nature, “O.P.P.”
49. Journey, “Don’t Stop Believin”’
50. Lenny Kravitz, “Are You Gonna Go My Way?”
51. George Michael, “Faith”
52. The Rolling Stones, “Start Me Up”
53. Marvin Gaye, “Sexual Healing”
54. Goo Goo Dolls, “Iris”
55. Talking Heads, “Once in a Lifetime”
56. Sheryl Crow, “All I Wanna Do”
57. Eric Clapton, “Tears in Heaven”
58. The Notorious B.I.G. feat. Puff Daddy & Mase, “Mo Money Mo Problems”
59. Meat Loaf “Paradise By the Dashboard Light”
60. Santana feat. Rob Thomas, “Smooth”
61. Backstreet Boys, “I Want It That Way”
62. Pretenders, “Brass in Pocket”
63. Beck, “Loser”
64. The Knack, “My Sharona”
65. Nelly, “Hot in Herre”
66. Squeeze, “Tempted”
67. John Cougar Mellencamp, “Jack and Diane”
68. Chic, “Good Times”
69. Mary J. Blige, “Real Love”
70. Culture Club, “Do You Really Want to Hurt Me”
71. Dave Matthews Band, “Crash Into Me”
72. John Lennon, “(Just Like) Starting Over”
73. LL Cool J, “Mama Said Knock You Out”
74. Hall & Oates, “I Can’t Go for That (No Can Do)”
75. The Ramones, “I Wanna Be Sedated”
76. Eurythmics, “Sweet Dreams (Are Made of This)”
77. Missy Elliott, “Work It”
78. Green Day, “Good Riddance (Time of Your Life)”
79. Destiny’s Child, “Say My Name”
80. Duran Duran, “Hungry Like the Wolf”
81. OutKast, “Ms. Jackson”
82. Soft Cell, “Tainted Love”
83. Band Aid, “Do They Know It’s Christmas”
84. Radiohead, “Creep”
85. Eminem, “My Name Is”
86. Tracy Chapman, “Fast Car”
87. The Who, “Who Are You”
88. Metallica, “Enter Sandman”
89. Pat Benatar, “Hit Me With Your Best Shot”
90. The Police, “Roxanne”
91. Melissa Etheridge, “Come to My Window”
92. Salt-N-Pepa, “Push It”
93. Nine Inch Nails, “Closer”
94. Cheap Trick, “Surrender”
95. Oasis, “Wonderwall”
96. Beastie Boys, “(You Gotta) Fight for Your Right (to Party!)”
97. Devo, “Whip It”
98. Hanson, “MMMBop”
99. Norah Jones, “Don’t Know Why”
100. Madonna, “Ray of Light”
my song of the day.
Walk with me quiet, walk with me slow
with watered down coffee and words of gold
I can feel the edges of these things
when I hear you speak to me, so walk with me.
Walk with my empty, walk with me strong
The hush of our voices, when the day seems so long
It is like balm, it is like a jewel
it unravels all I thought I knew
Will you lead me, beside the still waters
where the oil, it runs over, and my cup overflows
You restore my soul
Tell me the story, where old is made new
The promise of ages, and all things that are true
When the shadows fall and the wrecking ball
swings and tears me through the heart...
Walk with me quiet, walk with me slow
with watered down coffee and words of gold
I can feel the edges of these things
when I hear you speak to me, so walk with me.
Walk with my empty, walk with me strong
The hush of our voices, when the day seems so long
It is like balm, it is like a jewel
it unravels all I thought I knew
Will you lead me, beside the still waters
where the oil, it runs over, and my cup overflows
You restore my soul
Tell me the story, where old is made new
The promise of ages, and all things that are true
When the shadows fall and the wrecking ball
swings and tears me through the heart...
10.6.03
Okay...that last post was a little harsh. I'm sorry.
This organization is a hard one to work in...so many rules that are ridiculous, or great on paper but not too practical. And our supervisor isn't a horrible person....he is working under some really difficult people, and he takes the brunt of that so we don't have to.
*sighs*
but would it hurt to tell us what we do right once in a while? I received my first positive feedback the other day. I made this presentation poster/folder for the annual fundraising campaign, and he said, "Who did this!? Melinda!? You've got talent!".
yeah. My poster making skills rule.
This organization is a hard one to work in...so many rules that are ridiculous, or great on paper but not too practical. And our supervisor isn't a horrible person....he is working under some really difficult people, and he takes the brunt of that so we don't have to.
*sighs*
but would it hurt to tell us what we do right once in a while? I received my first positive feedback the other day. I made this presentation poster/folder for the annual fundraising campaign, and he said, "Who did this!? Melinda!? You've got talent!".
yeah. My poster making skills rule.
YO!
I am going to bed
so this is my last post.
the last post, the last post of a new day
when I will open my eyes
realize
my dreams have all but not come true.
for when I sleep do I see but in blue?
Yeah. Today, my super fun *gags* supervisor came by. Got mad @ me....for good reason, I suppose. I could see all my kids, and I was @ a halfway point between them, but not close enough to the ones on the monkey bars. Licensing, bblah blah blah...*cough, choke*.
Then there was the cherry on top...
him: "Oh yeah, there's a staff meeting here on Wednesday @ 9am in the morning."
me: "Yeah, I can't make it. I have a music test in North Van."
him: "What time?"
me: "uuuuhmmm.....later in the morning, but I need the time to study and review. And if I'm here 'til 10:30 or 11am, that doesn't really give me any time."
him: (bustin' out the disapproval), "well...*sighs, clucks his tongue*, I guess you'll have to make that call for yourself."
FREAK!!! IN that STUPID tone of voice, as if the world is going to END and this is the worst decision I'll ever make...EVER....AAARRGH!
me: (as he's walking RUDELY away, ignoring me...as per usual), "It's for school in the fall. I'm only working here 'til the end of June, right? And I need to pass this test to be a full time student...(I'm pretty sure he's out of hearing range by now). This is deciding a bigger part of my future....."
YMCA...we build strong individuals, strong families, strong communities....unless you work for us, then we just attempt to manipulate your face off...until we have destroyed your spirit, and out of sheer exasperation, you have handed over your sooooooul...
we are Martha Stewart.
I am going to bed
so this is my last post.
the last post, the last post of a new day
when I will open my eyes
realize
my dreams have all but not come true.
for when I sleep do I see but in blue?
Yeah. Today, my super fun *gags* supervisor came by. Got mad @ me....for good reason, I suppose. I could see all my kids, and I was @ a halfway point between them, but not close enough to the ones on the monkey bars. Licensing, bblah blah blah...*cough, choke*.
Then there was the cherry on top...
him: "Oh yeah, there's a staff meeting here on Wednesday @ 9am in the morning."
me: "Yeah, I can't make it. I have a music test in North Van."
him: "What time?"
me: "uuuuhmmm.....later in the morning, but I need the time to study and review. And if I'm here 'til 10:30 or 11am, that doesn't really give me any time."
him: (bustin' out the disapproval), "well...*sighs, clucks his tongue*, I guess you'll have to make that call for yourself."
FREAK!!! IN that STUPID tone of voice, as if the world is going to END and this is the worst decision I'll ever make...EVER....AAARRGH!
me: (as he's walking RUDELY away, ignoring me...as per usual), "It's for school in the fall. I'm only working here 'til the end of June, right? And I need to pass this test to be a full time student...(I'm pretty sure he's out of hearing range by now). This is deciding a bigger part of my future....."
YMCA...we build strong individuals, strong families, strong communities....unless you work for us, then we just attempt to manipulate your face off...until we have destroyed your spirit, and out of sheer exasperation, you have handed over your sooooooul...
we are Martha Stewart.
9.6.03
good morning.
here's one of those quotations that has moved me so...
...What if you discover that the least of the brethren of Jesus, the one who needs your love the most, the one you can help the most by loving, the one to whom your love will be the most meaningful--what if you discovered that this least of the brethren of Jesus...is you?...--Carl Jung
And then...
...And the Lord is now calling me a second time, affirming me, enabling me, encouraging me, challenging me all the way into fullness of faith, hope, and love in the power of His Holy Spirit. Ignorant, weak, sinful person that I am, with easy rationalizations for my sinful behaviour, I am being told anew in the unmistakable language of love, "I am with you, I am for you, I am in you. I expect more failure from you than you expect from yourself...--Brennan Manning, The Ragamuffin Gospel
Bam.
here's one of those quotations that has moved me so...
...What if you discover that the least of the brethren of Jesus, the one who needs your love the most, the one you can help the most by loving, the one to whom your love will be the most meaningful--what if you discovered that this least of the brethren of Jesus...is you?...--Carl Jung
And then...
...And the Lord is now calling me a second time, affirming me, enabling me, encouraging me, challenging me all the way into fullness of faith, hope, and love in the power of His Holy Spirit. Ignorant, weak, sinful person that I am, with easy rationalizations for my sinful behaviour, I am being told anew in the unmistakable language of love, "I am with you, I am for you, I am in you. I expect more failure from you than you expect from yourself...--Brennan Manning, The Ragamuffin Gospel
Bam.
I wrote a post about today, but it seemed far too personal. So I deleted it.
My DTS graduation was a year ago on June 7. One year. I'll have been home for a year on July 2.
I'm still not certain what to make of all of it. It was a wonderful time. I'm starting to see it more and more as foundational, in terms of my relationship with God.
But missing the house mates and outreach team and friends--those emotions are harder to rationalize.
Anyway, it's been sort of a long, sad day, so I'm going to go to bed.
Know that I am learning a lot. God is humbling me, truly. I've got some quotations to share with you soon, but for now, I'm just going to bed.
to God alone be the glory, now and forever.
amen.
My DTS graduation was a year ago on June 7. One year. I'll have been home for a year on July 2.
I'm still not certain what to make of all of it. It was a wonderful time. I'm starting to see it more and more as foundational, in terms of my relationship with God.
But missing the house mates and outreach team and friends--those emotions are harder to rationalize.
Anyway, it's been sort of a long, sad day, so I'm going to go to bed.
Know that I am learning a lot. God is humbling me, truly. I've got some quotations to share with you soon, but for now, I'm just going to bed.
to God alone be the glory, now and forever.
amen.
6.6.03
5.6.03
I watched '48 Hours Investigates' tonight on channel 15. They investigated 'The Canal Street Brothel' in New Orleans. It's been shut down now, due to an FBI Investigation. It was funny because @ the beginning of the show, these ladies are really cool, and you're thinking, 'stupid fbi! these ladies are so nice,' but then I kept on watching.
The brothel matron was Jeanette Maier. Her mother Tommie answered phones. Her daugher Monica worked as a hooker. Monica has a daugher, Naveya.
So I'm thinking, whaaaaat!? This family is nuts. But then it all comes spilling out. Jeanette was molested as a child. She turned her first trick @ age 8, for a quarter, so she could buy some food. Then Monica, her daughter, turned her first trick @ age 16. Jeanette didn't want her on the streets, so she brought her into the "family business" aka the brothel.
Whooooeee. It gets worse. Monica has also been molested and raped. She doesn't wanted the same life for her little girl, Naveya.
This story was heavy, and by this point, my heart was breaking.
So what can I do? Begin (and persist in) praying for this family. I started to see how the FBI shutting down this brothel has freed this family from these chains, by forcing them to do something else with their lives. And they are. Monica lost custody of Naveya in court, but is working to get her back. Jeanette hit rock bottom, and is building her way back up, as is Tommie. Really, I think they can make it. Will you consider committing to praying for them with me? God wants to heal this family, but only He can do it.
Okay...
that was really all I had to say.
The brothel matron was Jeanette Maier. Her mother Tommie answered phones. Her daugher Monica worked as a hooker. Monica has a daugher, Naveya.
So I'm thinking, whaaaaat!? This family is nuts. But then it all comes spilling out. Jeanette was molested as a child. She turned her first trick @ age 8, for a quarter, so she could buy some food. Then Monica, her daughter, turned her first trick @ age 16. Jeanette didn't want her on the streets, so she brought her into the "family business" aka the brothel.
Whooooeee. It gets worse. Monica has also been molested and raped. She doesn't wanted the same life for her little girl, Naveya.
This story was heavy, and by this point, my heart was breaking.
So what can I do? Begin (and persist in) praying for this family. I started to see how the FBI shutting down this brothel has freed this family from these chains, by forcing them to do something else with their lives. And they are. Monica lost custody of Naveya in court, but is working to get her back. Jeanette hit rock bottom, and is building her way back up, as is Tommie. Really, I think they can make it. Will you consider committing to praying for them with me? God wants to heal this family, but only He can do it.
Okay...
that was really all I had to say.
I called my friend Matt in Missourri tonight. He was on my DTS, and my outreach team, and I miss him a lot. I think we were on the phone for about an hour, and it was awesome! So much to say, and yet we just talked about music. He's really diggin' Rufus Wainwright, and Coldplay...but some misinformed putz told him ALL john mayer's songs sound the same....*sighs*. I tried to set him straight.
He's getting married on July 11 to Genieve, also on our outreach team! The youngest and oldest members...it was so cute. Well, sort of awkward too. I can't make it to their wedding, because I'm singing in my friend Melissa's the next day. But my heart is with them.
the end...until next time....Batman!
He's getting married on July 11 to Genieve, also on our outreach team! The youngest and oldest members...it was so cute. Well, sort of awkward too. I can't make it to their wedding, because I'm singing in my friend Melissa's the next day. But my heart is with them.
the end...until next time....Batman!
4.6.03
Tonight I heard some very sad news about a friend of mine.
It sort of puts everything I talk about in perspective. Or changes priorities. I'm not sure. It's one of those really big things, and I certainly don't know how to handle it. I doubt he does either.
That's about it.
IMR played @ the brickyard tonight. That was cool.
It sort of puts everything I talk about in perspective. Or changes priorities. I'm not sure. It's one of those really big things, and I certainly don't know how to handle it. I doubt he does either.
That's about it.
IMR played @ the brickyard tonight. That was cool.
2.6.03
C.S Lewis: "It may be that salvation consists not in the canceling of these eternal moments but in the perfected humility that bears the shame forever, rejoicing in the occasion which is furnished to God's compassion and glad that it should be common knowledge to the universe. Perhaps in that eternal moment St.Peter--he will forgive me if I am wrong--forever denies his Master. If so, it would indeed be true that the joys of heaven are for most of us, in our present condition, an acquired taste--and certain ways of life may render the taste impossible of acquisition. Perhaps the lost are those who dare not go to such a public place."
Read it again. At least 7 times. Slowly, carefully. You will have to change the way you think to understand. Go away, and come back tomorrow. Read it again a few times. Give it a few minutes. Now comment.
Read it again. At least 7 times. Slowly, carefully. You will have to change the way you think to understand. Go away, and come back tomorrow. Read it again a few times. Give it a few minutes. Now comment.
1.6.03
what to write, what to write, what to write...
I have much to talk about, much that is flying through my mind, but it's best revealed in a more private sector.
On other notes, worship invasion was good last night. Though defining a time of worship in terms of adjectives is always rather difficult. God had put healing on the hearts of the leaders, and I think there was a real spirit of gentleness in the place, and a sense of peace and of quiet. Being still before the Lord is equally important to being up and dancing and shouting and battle cries and all the rest.
I talked to my friend Jessica the other night. She @ a ywam base in Newcastle Australia. Just hearing what was going on in her life, and just little greetings as people walked by, made me really homesick.
When we were @ Sasquatch! eating breakfast, we were talking about the weather and the mugginess of the day, and I said, "*with joking sobs* oh, it reminds me of home.". Townsville, right? And someone remarked, "you lived there for 6 months, and it's home!?" And truth be told, yes it is home.
I say that now with almost 12 months away from it, and with a sense of being @ home here again, but the community was really home.
Not much flow to that post, but what can you do?
I have much to talk about, much that is flying through my mind, but it's best revealed in a more private sector.
On other notes, worship invasion was good last night. Though defining a time of worship in terms of adjectives is always rather difficult. God had put healing on the hearts of the leaders, and I think there was a real spirit of gentleness in the place, and a sense of peace and of quiet. Being still before the Lord is equally important to being up and dancing and shouting and battle cries and all the rest.
I talked to my friend Jessica the other night. She @ a ywam base in Newcastle Australia. Just hearing what was going on in her life, and just little greetings as people walked by, made me really homesick.
When we were @ Sasquatch! eating breakfast, we were talking about the weather and the mugginess of the day, and I said, "*with joking sobs* oh, it reminds me of home.". Townsville, right? And someone remarked, "you lived there for 6 months, and it's home!?" And truth be told, yes it is home.
I say that now with almost 12 months away from it, and with a sense of being @ home here again, but the community was really home.
Not much flow to that post, but what can you do?
