back on track. uh huh.

I haven't been running regularily for about 2 weeks now. I had a cold, some bronchial issues...oy vey, it just couldn't be done.

TONIGHT, I decided, was the night I would re-gain the ground once lost to minor cold symptoms. Ta daaaaaaaaaaaaaa.....

I started out around 9.30pm (after much earnest procrastination), and it didn't look good. 2 minutes in, I thought, "aiiiiiiiiiya....maybe I SHOULD just give up and gain 300 pounds...", but instead, I kept running.

I completed the 8 min run, and found a neighborhood street route in the process. I was going to head home, but I thought, "hey, let's try the next 8 min...or maybe just 5."

So, I took my 1 min walking break, then began to run again. And I ran. and ran. and ran some more. My legs started kicking into "autorun", where they just went...and went...and finished the second 8 min run!

I couldn't believe it! I ran the last minute gasping and praising God. Faithfulness...I love it. Encourages me to trust in all the other things I'm so close to giving up on.

To bed. One thing I always perservere in...sleeping.

[ h e a r t ]

far away.

my voice is far away.

i haven't really sung much in the last month or so.

heh.

i mean, i've sung, but not opera style, not to the Bb's that were the top of my range...

*sighs*

feeling a little panicky about that right now....what with this audition coming on Friday and all.

do it chicken. squawk.

Get a FREE iPOD.

oh...but...no, sure...that's...uh huh. okay. ta.

teaguy finds his teagirl...
yay...

but also...

huh?!

but also..

of course! finally!

and then...

where does it leave me? standing...sitting...still close, but not as...
still welcome, but with a point of wearing out...

mmmmmmmmmmmm....

sometimes life is so awkward on the phone, because not every conversation can be best said with words.

2 posts. yes. i wanted them to be separate.

I've had this killer cold/lung/nasal/overallcrappy thing going on for about a week. I haven't been running because it's not really...practical to run when you can't breathe.

The lack of physical activity was driving me crazy, so I decided to go for a run today.

My lungs aren't really happy about it...but they'll get over it.

The good news is that my running motion/rhythm felt sweet...totally refreshing, good speed, consistent speed...

That's all. I have to go get ready for work. Mmmm....ice cream....

[heart].

oh no. don't start that again.

We have 2 phone lines @ my house...line 1 (the orginal) and line 2 (the addition).
The line 2 number used to be safeway pharmacy or something, so when we first got it a few years ago, there were lots of early saturday morning phone calls, asking for the safeway pharmacy.

Eventually, those calls stopped.

So imagine my surprise when I got a call for Safeway this morning!

Yeah. Shocking, I know.

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....gnnnnnnnnnnn.

hi everyone.

tonight, i wanted to see laura brook, but instead i slipped a card through her mailslot.
tonight, i wanted to cuddle with somebody warm, but instead i hung out with bro and his girl. (still wonderful...)
tonight, i wanted 200looseleafteas from steeps, but it was closed early...
so we went to tim horton's instead.

blaghalghalalalalalahghla.

i need to get to lethbridge. anybody wanna come? no seriously...let's do this.

help!
i need somebody....
help!
not just anybody
help!
you know i need someone...
help...

i hate letters.

"We are sorry to....I regret to inform you that....With so many applicants.....The standards for application were very high this year....Sure you understand...Try again...."

crapcrapcrapcrapcrapcrapcrap.

Okay, so none of my plans have worked out so far, and now when I need to be focussed and ready, I'm sick. Throbbing, fever, throat, nose, lungs, ugh, gungh, blech, blaaaaaaaaaah.

Good thing we've got so many tastefully decorated, strategically place kleenex boxes.

yeah. good thing.

towels. no, seriously, i'm talking about towels.

what the heck kind of family fights about towels!?

oh wait...mine.

resting...

I just got home from church.

WOW.

A man named John spoke to us today, about the church in China.

Wow. Just...wow.

My heart's all stirred up, again. This China thing keeps coming up for me...a vision, an opportunity to go...it's all there.

I'm off to sell ice cream now.

fabutan-a-licious.

I went tanning today...for one of the last times. I used this accelerator cream that totally makes your skin burn and turn red...heh...healthy?

ahem...

When I got to the tanning place, there were 2 guys waiting. I assumed they were waiting for girlfriends, and one of them was. One was totally waiting for another guy though...apparently it was "boys' tanning night out"...I laughed inside my head.

While I was waiting this couple came out looking TOTALLY lobster'd. I think they got the same deal as me...the regular brings a newbie, and you both tan free for a week. Thing is, I didn't go everday...no good for the un-sunned skin. But I think those 2 have been just soaking up the fake rays...and they look it.

Anyway....shout out to malcolm and frequency fall. And what the heck, shout out to second too. I haven't been to a show in sooooooo long...but I went to one tonight.

Okay, random post...I'm tired and hungry, but no eating, just bed. Mmm...bed.

hey there...don't steal my duck.

I have this plush duck that I sleep with, because it's softer and cuter than a pillow. Just now I was napping, and my youngest sister came in and stole it.

grr...but I was really too blissfully napp-y to mind.

So, NAPPING!
WOw!

I haven't had a good, refreshing, gloriously awakening nap like this is SO long. It was probably just over an hour-ish of sleeping, but I was so tired and sore and getting stiff when I crawled into bed, that I really had no other options but to sleep.
And sleep I did.

Shoooot. I feel fine. Mmmmmhmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

This "exercise" may actually be good for me after all.

zoe's purse holds the keys.

this week, i decided, i was hella fit.

check it:

monday: run
tuesday: (okay, i did nothing, but i did go to school and walk up and down the mountain all day).
wednesday: run
thursday: curves
friday: run & curves!
saturday: run & curves!

OH YES!! i am an athlete. or exhausted and crazy...who knows?

could it be...naaww....?

I...there's...you see...

This friend of mine, I've kind of liked him for, mmm.....6 years.
And for a while there, he was just into everything I wasn't, so that was fine, it couldn't work.
Then his heart started changing, and he's been becoming, and now is, this amazing man who does love God, and...it's just that much more we have in common.

He's had this girlfriend, beautiful, petite, sunshine-in-his-life girlfriend. So I knew I had no chance.

But they have recently broken up. And I think it's...over.

So I can't help but wonder...

naaaw...could never be.


?

milk makes me grumble.

I don't even know if I want to write about the thing in my head.
hmmm...

Yeah, I think I'll leave it for now.

green paper.

MINA WE ARE LEAVING AT 8:00AM NOT YOUR CRAZY 8:30AM And I know you think your [sic] right but I am boss tomorrow SO WAKE UP IN GOOD TIME!! IF YOU DON'T I'M JUST LEAVING!!! No argueing [sic] w/me tomorrow!! I am Boss!!! love ben.

(this is the note my brother left me on my bed re: getting up in time to go to his CapJazz audition tomorrow. suffice it to say, he knows me too well).

snap, crackle * achoooo*

The sounds I made this morning were...
*snap* & *crackle* care of my knees,
and *achoo* care of all the freakin' blossoms and junk outside.

I hate spring.

grr...

getting buff.

Today, I worked.
Yay.

One of our ice cream freezers was off all night (woot...), so the ice cream was fully UNservable.
But...these ladies came in, and they REALLY wanted Praline Caramel Crunch, which had melted, but...there was a new bucket stored in the other freezer, so I got it out for them.

HARDEST ICE CREAM SCOOPING EVER.

Well, maybe not ever...but it was pretty hard.

So that's my day.

rise...up.

So...prophets are cool.



That's about it for now.

calling all boys!

hey!
keats camps needs male counsellors for this summer!
skippers = get paid
first mates = volunteer
they need both.
so apply already.

in memory.

"We need the enthusiasm of the young. We need their joie de vivre. In it is reflected something of the original joy God had in creating man."
-- his holiness John Paul II.


"A professional soldier understands that war means killing people, war means maiming people, war means families left without fathers and mothers. All you have to do is hold your first dying soldier in your arms, and have that terribly futile feeling that his life is flowing out and you can't do anything about it. Then you understand the horror of war. Any soldier worth his salt should be antiwar. And still there are things with fighting for."
-- Gen. H. Norman Schwarzkopf.

collection.

On my way home from the cleaner's, I saw 2 ducklings crossing the street. Poor little guys...they looked so scared and unsure. I think they made it, amidst the roar and relentless power of rushing cars...

I hope they did.