HEY!
I go to camp tomorrow...for the whole summer!
Don't miss me too much, eh?
*sighs*
I'll miss you enough for the both of us.
26.6.03
24.6.03
I just got back from CAAAAAAAMP!
Keats camps that is. Fun! fun! fun! in the...cold, overcast, lack of sun.
Weather in the Howe Sound is not as beautiful as here...yet!
It was grand to see my family, workmates, my BED.....
Over the weekend I learned to drive stick...on a big, old, truck of questionable quality named "Dumpy".
I only had to use 1st and 2nd gear, and it was great fun. I was taught by Shawn, who was impressed with the speed of my learning!
AND I never once made it jump or "bunny hop".
Yeah. I'm pretty cool. Or quick. Or something.
*HIGH FIVE*
Keats camps that is. Fun! fun! fun! in the...cold, overcast, lack of sun.
Weather in the Howe Sound is not as beautiful as here...yet!
It was grand to see my family, workmates, my BED.....
Over the weekend I learned to drive stick...on a big, old, truck of questionable quality named "Dumpy".
I only had to use 1st and 2nd gear, and it was great fun. I was taught by Shawn, who was impressed with the speed of my learning!
AND I never once made it jump or "bunny hop".
Yeah. I'm pretty cool. Or quick. Or something.
*HIGH FIVE*
19.6.03
18.6.03
dust. mold. grass.
my 3 sworn enemies, the biological banes of my existence.
I was trying to explain to ryan the extremes of my annoyance.
It's like my face is itchy and burning from the inside out. And a pressure is building. And soon, it will be let loose, and my face will explode off the front of my head.
in other news, imr and raking bombs, and a band I didn't see rocked the sons and the daughters @ mesa luna's tonight.
cheers.
my 3 sworn enemies, the biological banes of my existence.
I was trying to explain to ryan the extremes of my annoyance.
It's like my face is itchy and burning from the inside out. And a pressure is building. And soon, it will be let loose, and my face will explode off the front of my head.
in other news, imr and raking bombs, and a band I didn't see rocked the sons and the daughters @ mesa luna's tonight.
cheers.
17.6.03
whenever I french braid my hair, someone comments, and invariably asks if I did it myself.
I'm 21 years old!!! Who else would be braiding my hair for me!?
On another note, do commentors only comment when they see that another has gone before? Who will be the first, my friends? Who will be the first.
I'm 21 years old!!! Who else would be braiding my hair for me!?
On another note, do commentors only comment when they see that another has gone before? Who will be the first, my friends? Who will be the first.
16.6.03
15.6.03
what would you do if this was the last time you saw me?
if you knew that as we shook hands or high fives or laughed together, that these were our last moments, what would you do?
if today were your last day, what would you say to those around you? Would you fix things? Finally get down to resolving stuff? Or just let it go, because time is so short?
Sometimes thinking about it changes the way you act today.
Sometimes not.
Today it is sunny, and it is Father's day. Not a bad gig, eh?
if you knew that as we shook hands or high fives or laughed together, that these were our last moments, what would you do?
if today were your last day, what would you say to those around you? Would you fix things? Finally get down to resolving stuff? Or just let it go, because time is so short?
Sometimes thinking about it changes the way you act today.
Sometimes not.
Today it is sunny, and it is Father's day. Not a bad gig, eh?
14.6.03
well, this morning I forgot that my friend Brender (aka Brenda) was going to be @ the airport, en route to manitoba.
I FORGOT!!!
Yesterday, I neglected to wake up in time for my performance review @ work.
I FORGOT!!!
Today, I forgot to call Andwer in the afternoon.
I FORGOT!!!
My Bible is sitting on my dresser, but I haven't read it in a while.
I FORGOT!!!!
Noticing a pattern here?
I FORGOT!!!
Yesterday, I neglected to wake up in time for my performance review @ work.
I FORGOT!!!
Today, I forgot to call Andwer in the afternoon.
I FORGOT!!!
My Bible is sitting on my dresser, but I haven't read it in a while.
I FORGOT!!!!
Noticing a pattern here?
13.6.03
It's later than I wish it were, but I was just having an excellent conversation with my mum and Joanna, and that's not the kind of thing you cut off. I really like my mum, and my dad for that matter. Both of them are such examples to me of what it is to follow God. Not when it's easy or perfectly laid out, but to go and follow where He is calling and leading. They fully supported my time with ywam, and my time out of school, my recording, and my applying for school. They are here to help me with theory, with faith, with learning to cook rice properly, with friends, work; to hear my frustrations, my sorrows, joys, fears, worries, anxieties, problems; daycare and portland stories, philosophies, rants, hormonal rages....
My dad ministers in a denomination he doesn't fully agree with, but he stays because God has called him to. My mum is right in there too. They model to me a marriage that isn't perfect, but it's worth fighting for, and full of love.
I don't know what else to say, other than I hope they're around for a long time. It's hard to imagine walking into the world without them behind me, cheering me on, praying for me, and waiting to give hugs, no matter what happens.
Mum and dad, I love you.
My dad ministers in a denomination he doesn't fully agree with, but he stays because God has called him to. My mum is right in there too. They model to me a marriage that isn't perfect, but it's worth fighting for, and full of love.
I don't know what else to say, other than I hope they're around for a long time. It's hard to imagine walking into the world without them behind me, cheering me on, praying for me, and waiting to give hugs, no matter what happens.
Mum and dad, I love you.
12.6.03
These are VH-1's top 100 songs since Beethoven wrote his first Sonata. Or something like that.
1. Nirvana, “Smells Like Teen Spirit”
2. Michael Jackson, “Billie Jean”
3. Guns N’ Roses, “Sweet Child O’ Mine”
4. Eminem, “Lose Yourself”
5. U2, “One”
6. Run-D.M.C., “Walk This Way”
7. Prince, “When Doves Cry”
8. Whitney Houston, “I Will Always Love You”
9. The Police, “Every Breath You Take”
10. Madonna, “Like a Virgin”
11. Van Halen, “Jump”
12. Alanis Morissette, “You Oughta Know”
13. TLC, “Waterfalls”
14. Sinead O’Connor, “Nothing Compares 2 U”
15. Pink Floyd, “Another Brick in the Wall (Part 2)”
16. No Doubt, “Don’t Speak”
17. Def Leppard, “Photograph”
18. R.E.M., “Losing My Religion”
19. Public Enemy, “Fight the Power”
20. AC/DC, “You Shook Me All Night Long”
21. U2, “With or Without You”
22. Cyndi Lauper, “Time After Time”
23. Prince, “Little Red Corvette”
24. Celine Dion, “My Heart Will Go On”
25. Rick James, “Super Freak”
26. Bon Jovi, “Livin’ on a Prayer”
27. Grandmaster Flash, “The Message”
28. Britney Spears, “... Baby One More Time”
29. Bruce Springsteen, “Born in the U.S.A.”
30. Janet Jackson, “Nasty”
31. Dr. Dre feat. Snoop Doggy Dogg, “Nuthin’ but a ‘G’ Thang”
32. Pearl Jam, “Jeremy”
33. Tina Turner, “What’s Love Got to do With It”
34. Peter Gabriel, “In Your Eyes”
35. The Sugarhill Gang, “Rapper’s Delight”
36. Joan Jett, “I Love Rock ’n Roll”
37. Alicia Keys, “Fallin”’
38. The Clash, “London Calling”
39. Tom Petty, “Free Fallin”’
40. Michael Jackson, “Beat It”
41. Red Hot Chili Peppers, “Under the Bridge”
42. Blondie, “Heart of Glass”
43. The Go-Go’s, “Our Lips Are Sealed”
44. Gloria Gaynor, “I Will Survive”
45. Aerosmith, “I Don’t Want to Miss a Thing”
46. Queen and David Bowie, “Under Pressure”
47. Shania Twain, “You’re Still the One”
48. Naughty By Nature, “O.P.P.”
49. Journey, “Don’t Stop Believin”’
50. Lenny Kravitz, “Are You Gonna Go My Way?”
51. George Michael, “Faith”
52. The Rolling Stones, “Start Me Up”
53. Marvin Gaye, “Sexual Healing”
54. Goo Goo Dolls, “Iris”
55. Talking Heads, “Once in a Lifetime”
56. Sheryl Crow, “All I Wanna Do”
57. Eric Clapton, “Tears in Heaven”
58. The Notorious B.I.G. feat. Puff Daddy & Mase, “Mo Money Mo Problems”
59. Meat Loaf “Paradise By the Dashboard Light”
60. Santana feat. Rob Thomas, “Smooth”
61. Backstreet Boys, “I Want It That Way”
62. Pretenders, “Brass in Pocket”
63. Beck, “Loser”
64. The Knack, “My Sharona”
65. Nelly, “Hot in Herre”
66. Squeeze, “Tempted”
67. John Cougar Mellencamp, “Jack and Diane”
68. Chic, “Good Times”
69. Mary J. Blige, “Real Love”
70. Culture Club, “Do You Really Want to Hurt Me”
71. Dave Matthews Band, “Crash Into Me”
72. John Lennon, “(Just Like) Starting Over”
73. LL Cool J, “Mama Said Knock You Out”
74. Hall & Oates, “I Can’t Go for That (No Can Do)”
75. The Ramones, “I Wanna Be Sedated”
76. Eurythmics, “Sweet Dreams (Are Made of This)”
77. Missy Elliott, “Work It”
78. Green Day, “Good Riddance (Time of Your Life)”
79. Destiny’s Child, “Say My Name”
80. Duran Duran, “Hungry Like the Wolf”
81. OutKast, “Ms. Jackson”
82. Soft Cell, “Tainted Love”
83. Band Aid, “Do They Know It’s Christmas”
84. Radiohead, “Creep”
85. Eminem, “My Name Is”
86. Tracy Chapman, “Fast Car”
87. The Who, “Who Are You”
88. Metallica, “Enter Sandman”
89. Pat Benatar, “Hit Me With Your Best Shot”
90. The Police, “Roxanne”
91. Melissa Etheridge, “Come to My Window”
92. Salt-N-Pepa, “Push It”
93. Nine Inch Nails, “Closer”
94. Cheap Trick, “Surrender”
95. Oasis, “Wonderwall”
96. Beastie Boys, “(You Gotta) Fight for Your Right (to Party!)”
97. Devo, “Whip It”
98. Hanson, “MMMBop”
99. Norah Jones, “Don’t Know Why”
100. Madonna, “Ray of Light”
1. Nirvana, “Smells Like Teen Spirit”
2. Michael Jackson, “Billie Jean”
3. Guns N’ Roses, “Sweet Child O’ Mine”
4. Eminem, “Lose Yourself”
5. U2, “One”
6. Run-D.M.C., “Walk This Way”
7. Prince, “When Doves Cry”
8. Whitney Houston, “I Will Always Love You”
9. The Police, “Every Breath You Take”
10. Madonna, “Like a Virgin”
11. Van Halen, “Jump”
12. Alanis Morissette, “You Oughta Know”
13. TLC, “Waterfalls”
14. Sinead O’Connor, “Nothing Compares 2 U”
15. Pink Floyd, “Another Brick in the Wall (Part 2)”
16. No Doubt, “Don’t Speak”
17. Def Leppard, “Photograph”
18. R.E.M., “Losing My Religion”
19. Public Enemy, “Fight the Power”
20. AC/DC, “You Shook Me All Night Long”
21. U2, “With or Without You”
22. Cyndi Lauper, “Time After Time”
23. Prince, “Little Red Corvette”
24. Celine Dion, “My Heart Will Go On”
25. Rick James, “Super Freak”
26. Bon Jovi, “Livin’ on a Prayer”
27. Grandmaster Flash, “The Message”
28. Britney Spears, “... Baby One More Time”
29. Bruce Springsteen, “Born in the U.S.A.”
30. Janet Jackson, “Nasty”
31. Dr. Dre feat. Snoop Doggy Dogg, “Nuthin’ but a ‘G’ Thang”
32. Pearl Jam, “Jeremy”
33. Tina Turner, “What’s Love Got to do With It”
34. Peter Gabriel, “In Your Eyes”
35. The Sugarhill Gang, “Rapper’s Delight”
36. Joan Jett, “I Love Rock ’n Roll”
37. Alicia Keys, “Fallin”’
38. The Clash, “London Calling”
39. Tom Petty, “Free Fallin”’
40. Michael Jackson, “Beat It”
41. Red Hot Chili Peppers, “Under the Bridge”
42. Blondie, “Heart of Glass”
43. The Go-Go’s, “Our Lips Are Sealed”
44. Gloria Gaynor, “I Will Survive”
45. Aerosmith, “I Don’t Want to Miss a Thing”
46. Queen and David Bowie, “Under Pressure”
47. Shania Twain, “You’re Still the One”
48. Naughty By Nature, “O.P.P.”
49. Journey, “Don’t Stop Believin”’
50. Lenny Kravitz, “Are You Gonna Go My Way?”
51. George Michael, “Faith”
52. The Rolling Stones, “Start Me Up”
53. Marvin Gaye, “Sexual Healing”
54. Goo Goo Dolls, “Iris”
55. Talking Heads, “Once in a Lifetime”
56. Sheryl Crow, “All I Wanna Do”
57. Eric Clapton, “Tears in Heaven”
58. The Notorious B.I.G. feat. Puff Daddy & Mase, “Mo Money Mo Problems”
59. Meat Loaf “Paradise By the Dashboard Light”
60. Santana feat. Rob Thomas, “Smooth”
61. Backstreet Boys, “I Want It That Way”
62. Pretenders, “Brass in Pocket”
63. Beck, “Loser”
64. The Knack, “My Sharona”
65. Nelly, “Hot in Herre”
66. Squeeze, “Tempted”
67. John Cougar Mellencamp, “Jack and Diane”
68. Chic, “Good Times”
69. Mary J. Blige, “Real Love”
70. Culture Club, “Do You Really Want to Hurt Me”
71. Dave Matthews Band, “Crash Into Me”
72. John Lennon, “(Just Like) Starting Over”
73. LL Cool J, “Mama Said Knock You Out”
74. Hall & Oates, “I Can’t Go for That (No Can Do)”
75. The Ramones, “I Wanna Be Sedated”
76. Eurythmics, “Sweet Dreams (Are Made of This)”
77. Missy Elliott, “Work It”
78. Green Day, “Good Riddance (Time of Your Life)”
79. Destiny’s Child, “Say My Name”
80. Duran Duran, “Hungry Like the Wolf”
81. OutKast, “Ms. Jackson”
82. Soft Cell, “Tainted Love”
83. Band Aid, “Do They Know It’s Christmas”
84. Radiohead, “Creep”
85. Eminem, “My Name Is”
86. Tracy Chapman, “Fast Car”
87. The Who, “Who Are You”
88. Metallica, “Enter Sandman”
89. Pat Benatar, “Hit Me With Your Best Shot”
90. The Police, “Roxanne”
91. Melissa Etheridge, “Come to My Window”
92. Salt-N-Pepa, “Push It”
93. Nine Inch Nails, “Closer”
94. Cheap Trick, “Surrender”
95. Oasis, “Wonderwall”
96. Beastie Boys, “(You Gotta) Fight for Your Right (to Party!)”
97. Devo, “Whip It”
98. Hanson, “MMMBop”
99. Norah Jones, “Don’t Know Why”
100. Madonna, “Ray of Light”
my song of the day.
Walk with me quiet, walk with me slow
with watered down coffee and words of gold
I can feel the edges of these things
when I hear you speak to me, so walk with me.
Walk with my empty, walk with me strong
The hush of our voices, when the day seems so long
It is like balm, it is like a jewel
it unravels all I thought I knew
Will you lead me, beside the still waters
where the oil, it runs over, and my cup overflows
You restore my soul
Tell me the story, where old is made new
The promise of ages, and all things that are true
When the shadows fall and the wrecking ball
swings and tears me through the heart...
Walk with me quiet, walk with me slow
with watered down coffee and words of gold
I can feel the edges of these things
when I hear you speak to me, so walk with me.
Walk with my empty, walk with me strong
The hush of our voices, when the day seems so long
It is like balm, it is like a jewel
it unravels all I thought I knew
Will you lead me, beside the still waters
where the oil, it runs over, and my cup overflows
You restore my soul
Tell me the story, where old is made new
The promise of ages, and all things that are true
When the shadows fall and the wrecking ball
swings and tears me through the heart...
10.6.03
Okay...that last post was a little harsh. I'm sorry.
This organization is a hard one to work in...so many rules that are ridiculous, or great on paper but not too practical. And our supervisor isn't a horrible person....he is working under some really difficult people, and he takes the brunt of that so we don't have to.
*sighs*
but would it hurt to tell us what we do right once in a while? I received my first positive feedback the other day. I made this presentation poster/folder for the annual fundraising campaign, and he said, "Who did this!? Melinda!? You've got talent!".
yeah. My poster making skills rule.
This organization is a hard one to work in...so many rules that are ridiculous, or great on paper but not too practical. And our supervisor isn't a horrible person....he is working under some really difficult people, and he takes the brunt of that so we don't have to.
*sighs*
but would it hurt to tell us what we do right once in a while? I received my first positive feedback the other day. I made this presentation poster/folder for the annual fundraising campaign, and he said, "Who did this!? Melinda!? You've got talent!".
yeah. My poster making skills rule.
YO!
I am going to bed
so this is my last post.
the last post, the last post of a new day
when I will open my eyes
realize
my dreams have all but not come true.
for when I sleep do I see but in blue?
Yeah. Today, my super fun *gags* supervisor came by. Got mad @ me....for good reason, I suppose. I could see all my kids, and I was @ a halfway point between them, but not close enough to the ones on the monkey bars. Licensing, bblah blah blah...*cough, choke*.
Then there was the cherry on top...
him: "Oh yeah, there's a staff meeting here on Wednesday @ 9am in the morning."
me: "Yeah, I can't make it. I have a music test in North Van."
him: "What time?"
me: "uuuuhmmm.....later in the morning, but I need the time to study and review. And if I'm here 'til 10:30 or 11am, that doesn't really give me any time."
him: (bustin' out the disapproval), "well...*sighs, clucks his tongue*, I guess you'll have to make that call for yourself."
FREAK!!! IN that STUPID tone of voice, as if the world is going to END and this is the worst decision I'll ever make...EVER....AAARRGH!
me: (as he's walking RUDELY away, ignoring me...as per usual), "It's for school in the fall. I'm only working here 'til the end of June, right? And I need to pass this test to be a full time student...(I'm pretty sure he's out of hearing range by now). This is deciding a bigger part of my future....."
YMCA...we build strong individuals, strong families, strong communities....unless you work for us, then we just attempt to manipulate your face off...until we have destroyed your spirit, and out of sheer exasperation, you have handed over your sooooooul...
we are Martha Stewart.
I am going to bed
so this is my last post.
the last post, the last post of a new day
when I will open my eyes
realize
my dreams have all but not come true.
for when I sleep do I see but in blue?
Yeah. Today, my super fun *gags* supervisor came by. Got mad @ me....for good reason, I suppose. I could see all my kids, and I was @ a halfway point between them, but not close enough to the ones on the monkey bars. Licensing, bblah blah blah...*cough, choke*.
Then there was the cherry on top...
him: "Oh yeah, there's a staff meeting here on Wednesday @ 9am in the morning."
me: "Yeah, I can't make it. I have a music test in North Van."
him: "What time?"
me: "uuuuhmmm.....later in the morning, but I need the time to study and review. And if I'm here 'til 10:30 or 11am, that doesn't really give me any time."
him: (bustin' out the disapproval), "well...*sighs, clucks his tongue*, I guess you'll have to make that call for yourself."
FREAK!!! IN that STUPID tone of voice, as if the world is going to END and this is the worst decision I'll ever make...EVER....AAARRGH!
me: (as he's walking RUDELY away, ignoring me...as per usual), "It's for school in the fall. I'm only working here 'til the end of June, right? And I need to pass this test to be a full time student...(I'm pretty sure he's out of hearing range by now). This is deciding a bigger part of my future....."
YMCA...we build strong individuals, strong families, strong communities....unless you work for us, then we just attempt to manipulate your face off...until we have destroyed your spirit, and out of sheer exasperation, you have handed over your sooooooul...
we are Martha Stewart.
9.6.03
good morning.
here's one of those quotations that has moved me so...
...What if you discover that the least of the brethren of Jesus, the one who needs your love the most, the one you can help the most by loving, the one to whom your love will be the most meaningful--what if you discovered that this least of the brethren of Jesus...is you?...--Carl Jung
And then...
...And the Lord is now calling me a second time, affirming me, enabling me, encouraging me, challenging me all the way into fullness of faith, hope, and love in the power of His Holy Spirit. Ignorant, weak, sinful person that I am, with easy rationalizations for my sinful behaviour, I am being told anew in the unmistakable language of love, "I am with you, I am for you, I am in you. I expect more failure from you than you expect from yourself...--Brennan Manning, The Ragamuffin Gospel
Bam.
here's one of those quotations that has moved me so...
...What if you discover that the least of the brethren of Jesus, the one who needs your love the most, the one you can help the most by loving, the one to whom your love will be the most meaningful--what if you discovered that this least of the brethren of Jesus...is you?...--Carl Jung
And then...
...And the Lord is now calling me a second time, affirming me, enabling me, encouraging me, challenging me all the way into fullness of faith, hope, and love in the power of His Holy Spirit. Ignorant, weak, sinful person that I am, with easy rationalizations for my sinful behaviour, I am being told anew in the unmistakable language of love, "I am with you, I am for you, I am in you. I expect more failure from you than you expect from yourself...--Brennan Manning, The Ragamuffin Gospel
Bam.
I wrote a post about today, but it seemed far too personal. So I deleted it.
My DTS graduation was a year ago on June 7. One year. I'll have been home for a year on July 2.
I'm still not certain what to make of all of it. It was a wonderful time. I'm starting to see it more and more as foundational, in terms of my relationship with God.
But missing the house mates and outreach team and friends--those emotions are harder to rationalize.
Anyway, it's been sort of a long, sad day, so I'm going to go to bed.
Know that I am learning a lot. God is humbling me, truly. I've got some quotations to share with you soon, but for now, I'm just going to bed.
to God alone be the glory, now and forever.
amen.
My DTS graduation was a year ago on June 7. One year. I'll have been home for a year on July 2.
I'm still not certain what to make of all of it. It was a wonderful time. I'm starting to see it more and more as foundational, in terms of my relationship with God.
But missing the house mates and outreach team and friends--those emotions are harder to rationalize.
Anyway, it's been sort of a long, sad day, so I'm going to go to bed.
Know that I am learning a lot. God is humbling me, truly. I've got some quotations to share with you soon, but for now, I'm just going to bed.
to God alone be the glory, now and forever.
amen.
6.6.03
5.6.03
I watched '48 Hours Investigates' tonight on channel 15. They investigated 'The Canal Street Brothel' in New Orleans. It's been shut down now, due to an FBI Investigation. It was funny because @ the beginning of the show, these ladies are really cool, and you're thinking, 'stupid fbi! these ladies are so nice,' but then I kept on watching.
The brothel matron was Jeanette Maier. Her mother Tommie answered phones. Her daugher Monica worked as a hooker. Monica has a daugher, Naveya.
So I'm thinking, whaaaaat!? This family is nuts. But then it all comes spilling out. Jeanette was molested as a child. She turned her first trick @ age 8, for a quarter, so she could buy some food. Then Monica, her daughter, turned her first trick @ age 16. Jeanette didn't want her on the streets, so she brought her into the "family business" aka the brothel.
Whooooeee. It gets worse. Monica has also been molested and raped. She doesn't wanted the same life for her little girl, Naveya.
This story was heavy, and by this point, my heart was breaking.
So what can I do? Begin (and persist in) praying for this family. I started to see how the FBI shutting down this brothel has freed this family from these chains, by forcing them to do something else with their lives. And they are. Monica lost custody of Naveya in court, but is working to get her back. Jeanette hit rock bottom, and is building her way back up, as is Tommie. Really, I think they can make it. Will you consider committing to praying for them with me? God wants to heal this family, but only He can do it.
Okay...
that was really all I had to say.
The brothel matron was Jeanette Maier. Her mother Tommie answered phones. Her daugher Monica worked as a hooker. Monica has a daugher, Naveya.
So I'm thinking, whaaaaat!? This family is nuts. But then it all comes spilling out. Jeanette was molested as a child. She turned her first trick @ age 8, for a quarter, so she could buy some food. Then Monica, her daughter, turned her first trick @ age 16. Jeanette didn't want her on the streets, so she brought her into the "family business" aka the brothel.
Whooooeee. It gets worse. Monica has also been molested and raped. She doesn't wanted the same life for her little girl, Naveya.
This story was heavy, and by this point, my heart was breaking.
So what can I do? Begin (and persist in) praying for this family. I started to see how the FBI shutting down this brothel has freed this family from these chains, by forcing them to do something else with their lives. And they are. Monica lost custody of Naveya in court, but is working to get her back. Jeanette hit rock bottom, and is building her way back up, as is Tommie. Really, I think they can make it. Will you consider committing to praying for them with me? God wants to heal this family, but only He can do it.
Okay...
that was really all I had to say.
I called my friend Matt in Missourri tonight. He was on my DTS, and my outreach team, and I miss him a lot. I think we were on the phone for about an hour, and it was awesome! So much to say, and yet we just talked about music. He's really diggin' Rufus Wainwright, and Coldplay...but some misinformed putz told him ALL john mayer's songs sound the same....*sighs*. I tried to set him straight.
He's getting married on July 11 to Genieve, also on our outreach team! The youngest and oldest members...it was so cute. Well, sort of awkward too. I can't make it to their wedding, because I'm singing in my friend Melissa's the next day. But my heart is with them.
the end...until next time....Batman!
He's getting married on July 11 to Genieve, also on our outreach team! The youngest and oldest members...it was so cute. Well, sort of awkward too. I can't make it to their wedding, because I'm singing in my friend Melissa's the next day. But my heart is with them.
the end...until next time....Batman!
4.6.03
Tonight I heard some very sad news about a friend of mine.
It sort of puts everything I talk about in perspective. Or changes priorities. I'm not sure. It's one of those really big things, and I certainly don't know how to handle it. I doubt he does either.
That's about it.
IMR played @ the brickyard tonight. That was cool.
It sort of puts everything I talk about in perspective. Or changes priorities. I'm not sure. It's one of those really big things, and I certainly don't know how to handle it. I doubt he does either.
That's about it.
IMR played @ the brickyard tonight. That was cool.
2.6.03
C.S Lewis: "It may be that salvation consists not in the canceling of these eternal moments but in the perfected humility that bears the shame forever, rejoicing in the occasion which is furnished to God's compassion and glad that it should be common knowledge to the universe. Perhaps in that eternal moment St.Peter--he will forgive me if I am wrong--forever denies his Master. If so, it would indeed be true that the joys of heaven are for most of us, in our present condition, an acquired taste--and certain ways of life may render the taste impossible of acquisition. Perhaps the lost are those who dare not go to such a public place."
Read it again. At least 7 times. Slowly, carefully. You will have to change the way you think to understand. Go away, and come back tomorrow. Read it again a few times. Give it a few minutes. Now comment.
Read it again. At least 7 times. Slowly, carefully. You will have to change the way you think to understand. Go away, and come back tomorrow. Read it again a few times. Give it a few minutes. Now comment.
1.6.03
what to write, what to write, what to write...
I have much to talk about, much that is flying through my mind, but it's best revealed in a more private sector.
On other notes, worship invasion was good last night. Though defining a time of worship in terms of adjectives is always rather difficult. God had put healing on the hearts of the leaders, and I think there was a real spirit of gentleness in the place, and a sense of peace and of quiet. Being still before the Lord is equally important to being up and dancing and shouting and battle cries and all the rest.
I talked to my friend Jessica the other night. She @ a ywam base in Newcastle Australia. Just hearing what was going on in her life, and just little greetings as people walked by, made me really homesick.
When we were @ Sasquatch! eating breakfast, we were talking about the weather and the mugginess of the day, and I said, "*with joking sobs* oh, it reminds me of home.". Townsville, right? And someone remarked, "you lived there for 6 months, and it's home!?" And truth be told, yes it is home.
I say that now with almost 12 months away from it, and with a sense of being @ home here again, but the community was really home.
Not much flow to that post, but what can you do?
I have much to talk about, much that is flying through my mind, but it's best revealed in a more private sector.
On other notes, worship invasion was good last night. Though defining a time of worship in terms of adjectives is always rather difficult. God had put healing on the hearts of the leaders, and I think there was a real spirit of gentleness in the place, and a sense of peace and of quiet. Being still before the Lord is equally important to being up and dancing and shouting and battle cries and all the rest.
I talked to my friend Jessica the other night. She @ a ywam base in Newcastle Australia. Just hearing what was going on in her life, and just little greetings as people walked by, made me really homesick.
When we were @ Sasquatch! eating breakfast, we were talking about the weather and the mugginess of the day, and I said, "*with joking sobs* oh, it reminds me of home.". Townsville, right? And someone remarked, "you lived there for 6 months, and it's home!?" And truth be told, yes it is home.
I say that now with almost 12 months away from it, and with a sense of being @ home here again, but the community was really home.
Not much flow to that post, but what can you do?
